I'm Something Beautiful, A Contradiction.

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2011-12-20T21:40:00.000+08:00

Salam :D

Muka si bebulat menghiasi page anda..
Im getting sleepy, Ill update tomorrow lah. :)

Regards,Qila

Duit?

2011-11-13T20:44:00.000+08:00

Salam.. ;)

So a lot of people around me are getting married or engaged, i would also, iAllah when the time comes. When the costs of the marriage itself is A LOT, i believe i can still cut down the cost, bcos in the end, it all comes down to you to make the choices.

Such as door gift. You seriously wanna give something that cost rm3 such as chocolate/mug/cupcakes to random ppl? If you got the money to splurge why not? But for me, eggs will always be my choice. Bcos eggs itself is a symbol of fertility, and hey, people can eat them! When I got the cute chocolates/cupcakes, I usually sayang to makan, and then berkulat like that je. Sayang kannn? Even eggs pon you can give them in nice box or put some stickers on them saying Thank you or what nots. Boleh saja donk!

Food is something I wont cut cost on. So good food = pricey tag. No prob, I dont want my guests to sakit perut or say Tak Sedappp. Not the way I want my guest to remind me of ;)

Baju. 1 outfit is enough. Banyak2 panas. 1 at my side, 1 at his. Sudahhhh. ;)

Hantaran. We will work something out, is not going to buy IPAD/IPHONE/SAMSUNG whatnots. Maybe shirts, songket (Terengganu is famous for those), bag, wallet, shoes those stuffs. We still need money for life after the kenduri.

Miscellaneous things, such as cards, photographer, titbits.. bla bla..

And guess what. Although I seem to cut all I can, it still amounts up to 20k for my side. Its a realistic figure, that one is EXCLUDING house rents, bills, car payment,food for two after married. Hahaha. All of that for one day event. If I have my way, I am sure I can cut 1/3 of that, but not sure the family will go for it. HMM.

Butttt, although you can not cut cost for the event, you can cut cost by buying your honeymoon at Groupon! Bless this website, got Bali, Langkawi, Cambodia.. Langkawi ones look tempting.. So Qila wait for your honeymoooonnn hehe.

Nota : Entri ni adalah suka2 sahaja. I am NOT getting amrried in the near future. No plans yet. Moga dipermudahkan segalanya. And yeah, I believe one of the ways to save money is without having Engagement Day. Terus kahwin sajaaa. Hehe. Tapi sekali lagi diulangi, if you have the money, why not? Go ahead. As for me, working hard for money makes me very calculative, and I try cutting where I can.Berpijak di bumi yang nyata sambil mngecilkan periuk supaya keraknya juga nipis.

Sampai nanti.

Regards,
Qla

Happy Anniversary, Sayang.

2011-10-22T21:08:00.001+08:00

Salam :)

As per the title, 23rd Oct 2011 will be my 2 years anniversary with Gee. Its been 2 years since the day we both had McD at the Alor Star Stadium, sealing our friendship into a relationship. It was truly one of my most cherished day, the day I become half yours.Ill be fully yours the day when dear daddy shake your hands, and that day, Ill have 2 men to be my crying shoulders. Damn I love you both.

Did you remember how malu i was at that time?
Did you noticed I was smiling so wide my face could crack?
Did you know how happy I was?
:))

So sayang,

Thanks,
For being my boyfriend.
For being patient.
For always being there, altho I know sometimes I can be a little too much
For taking care of me, because my parents trusts you, a lot.
For making me happy.
For being YOU.

We'll celebrate our birthday ni nanti k?
Ill wait for you.
Bcos 1 day, 2 days, a week is nothing, bcos if you promise me you'll be here, Ill just wait.
And you'll know where to find me.
:)

Rgrds,
Qila

Introducing :)

2011-10-17T21:11:00.000+08:00

Salam..

Its raining.. mmg kondusif utk tido ni hehe. Lgpun I am super tired due to the last 2 days mmg sgt hectic.. Letih sgt.

Se let me introduce to you my new baby :

my blackberry curve 8520 at the left. Oke yang kanan boleh ignore, thats my company phone hee :D

Rasa sgt puas hati beli sebab it was using my own money, keja gigih2 and I treat myself with this thangg, although hanyalah low end punya model but then there's always room to upgrade the phone, IAllah ada rezeki nnt kan hehe. So skrg masih kenal mengenal my bb, using Bis Bonus saja bcos I dont want to use line, it costs too much ;(

What I like about bb is its simple, its basic, but its another level of simplicity and basic. Sgt best for me bcos it has the func that I need plus func len2 like the FB and Twitter. Just nice bcos I am a FB junkie so yeaaa :)

And the BBM, gets me connected with my Indo friends, for freeeee.. and we can BBM while at work, haha bcos sometimes I can get a little bored, so kacau2 here and there.. Naiss.

Skrg just need to pujuk dear bf beli bb jgk. Your tabby is nice, but its nicer if you can BBM me too :)

Rgrds,
Qla

101111

2011-10-10T14:49:00.000+08:00

Salam :)

Hari ni puasa, iAllah nak puasa all week and mestilah teringin makan mcm2 kan..
So free sket kat office google la sambal bilis sebab teringin nak makan dgn kurma ayam ptg nnt :)

Sambal Bilis dan Kentang :

4 biji kentang

1 cawan ikan bilis belah

3 ulas bawang merah (ditumbuk)

1 ulas bawang putih (ditumbuk)

3 sudu makan cili boh (boleh dikurang/tambah)

2 sudu makan sos tiram

1-2 sudu makan madu (option)

Minyak utk menggoreng & menumis

_____________________________________

Kentang dikupas kulit, potong bentuk wedges, goreng hingga perang dan ketepikan
Ikan bilis dicuci bersih, goreng hingga garing dan ketepikan
Tumiskan bahan tumbuk hingga wangi dan garing.Masukkan cili boh,tumis sampai pecah minyak.Kemudian masukkan pula sos tiram dan madu.
Kemudian masukkan kentang dan ikan bilis.Gaul sebati.Siap untuk dihidang
SELAMAT MENCUBA

Resipi from myresipi.com :)

Kentang tu kalau sagat halus2 and crispy mesti lagi best! Ni yg seronok buat sambal sebab hari tu gigih buat cili boh sendiri. Cili boh jual kat sini semua pucat2. Dontch likeeee. :( So beli cili kering kat Giant, rendam dgn air suam, blend dengan bawang besar, bawang putih and sedikit halia bagi wangi. Garam masuk secubit. Tak payah banyak sebab nnt masak tambah garam lagi.. :) Puas ati tgk warna merah menyala cili boh buatan sendiri. Pedas plak tu. Terangkatttt.

Oke, sambung keje, kang nak balik on time katenye. Mak kena masak untuk anak2 ikan kat rumah. Hee.

Regards, Qila

Sunday Night

2011-10-01T21:05:00.000+08:00

Salam :)

Was watching my housemates getting ready for their dates :) such a nice feeling. I miss night dates, we used to have it so often during uni days. It was niceeeee. But now, due to the distance that Gee or me has to travel after the end of each date, we usually say goodbye at 5 or 6 pm, so either of us will reach not later than 9 o'clock either Jitra/Kulim. And lagipun I usually sleep at 10pm, making it impossible for me to go anywhere after 9pm especially on a weekday. But we ganti the time by seeing each other the earliest as possible, and try to do a lot of things in a short amount of time. Right now, knowing he is safe and sound is enough for me, although sometimes I miss him so much I will start my perangai and piss him off gila2. Sorry b!

I am grateful for the late nights during our uni years, and I am grateful for the days we share, doesnt matter if its just an hour during my lunch, or the whole day during a Sunday. I am just grateful for u. Spending time with my loved one, meaning my fam, your fam, and YOU is the most cherished part of my life. My highlight of the week. :)

Looking forward to spend the rest of my life with you you you. :)

Rgrds, Qila

27th!

2011-09-27T12:11:00.000+08:00

Salam :)

Gaji dah masuk! Yeayy. 25% masuk tabung hee.
Tapi still dalam dilemma nak beli tak telepon baru.

Aiyoo ammaaaa!

You

2011-09-26T21:59:00.000+08:00

Salam :)

I have a lot of friends from high school in FB. Well 70% of my FB friends comes from my college days, tapi ada lah that 20% comes from my high school.. And yang I can see is ramai antara mereka berpasangan dengan kawan2 semasa sekolah juga. The one that I never thought they could end up with. Hehe. It seems that no matter how far you search for that special someone, you had already meet them. They were in front of you all along. Maybe mereka dah ketemu jodoh, mungkin semasa belajar, tapi kemudian jodoh tu tak kekal lama, jumpa kawan2 sekolah and then poof! Chemistry all over again. Hahah. Tapi I kenot tahan if that happen to me. I mean I have some history at school, and I prefer to leave them in the past. Lagipun all of my schoolmates treat me like Im some kind of adik although at that moment, I was bigger than some of em. I was hugeeee although not as hugeeee as now hahaa. Lets just say if I could tun back time I will want to change just 1 thing, of not falling too hard, and was broken by the falling. I wish no one would ever felt the feeling I was feeling at that time, it was cruel yaww. I was 16, hurting, but yet I survived my first heartbreak, and I was stronger than ever :) #SayaGenerasi nyanyi lagu Stronger bila putus cinta :)

Well for me, my jodoh right now is Gee, whom I met when I was 19, someone who I was curious of, but never get the chance to know (you got some history,too mister!). Tapi namanya jodoh, the chemistry datang 2 years later, I was 21, I fell in love, and still is falling every day. :) Look at where we are right now, close to 2 years old hunnybee :) Lets both be two mature beings and not play with each others heart, bcos my family loves you like i love you, much. And they will kill anybody who hurt me, I can promise that :)

So konklusinya, jodoh kita maybe classmate darjah 1 dulu. Maybe yang slalu tarik kerusi kita time kita nak duduk. Maybe yang selalu buat kita nangis. Atau maybe nerd pakai spek tebal, tapi sekarang muka dah macam Aaron Aziz. Jodoh kita maybe tengah tunggu je nak jumpa kita, atau maybe abang diploma yang baru masuk kelas masa second year :) Mana nak tahu mana jodoh kita, sampai lah tiba masa ayah kita salam tangan dia, and serah tanggungjawab untuk jaga kita, tanggung dosa kita and guide kita. Masa tu lah kita boleh tengok dia dalam-dalam and bagi hidup kita untuk dia lead sbb masa tu, kita dah jdi hak dia.

Hehe. I am feeling mellow. I will finish my glass of milk, and go to sleep. Nite :)

Regards, Qila

Life has been good..

2011-09-25T20:37:00.000+08:00

Salam.. :)

Huyoo lama tak update woo.. Ihik. Ntah le, mood dari Ramadhan sampai nak abes Syawal dah ni. Mcm tuuu je hahah. Hows life has been for the past few months for me? Same ol' Same ol'.. Family Alhamdulillah, Kerja Alhamdulillah, Kwn2 Alhamdulillah.. Okay lets go phase by phase shall we..

Family :

Alhamdulillah semua okay, sehat walafiat.. Tu yang paling penting untuk saya. Mereka happy, saya lagi2 happy.. Ramadhan dapat spend few days with them and Syawal pun dapat disambut dgn diorang, alto it was a short Raya, tapi cukup semuanya Alhamdulillah. Syawal pertama kena bagi duit Raya. It feels nice, altho my account feels very light afterwards teehee. Syawal 2011 jugak sgt2 bermakna sebab family Gee sempat meluangkan masa dtg untuk beraya. Alhamdulillah walaupun sesat2, its the thoughts and efforts that count! Hehe. Thanks Gee and family, sgt2 appreciate the time you guys spent altho korang pun memang rushing.. Happyyyy :)

Kerja :

So nak dekat setahun dah kerja kat sini, both of my supervisors pun dah move on, mereka dapat rezeki kat tenpat len pulak. I miss them sometimes tapi thats life hard cold fact in the private world, people jump here and there almost everyday, and I am sure when I am able to do that, I will too. I mean gaji dan benefit yang lebih tinggi dapat dioffer oleh orang len, sure akan amik kan? And I want to secure a very healthy financial background bila dah settle down nanti. Dengan family lagi, dengan babies lagi.. I am not good in investing, but I am quite good in saving money. Sbb harap sangat hidup takde debt except my PTPTN yang masih berbaki RM8.4k, my car loan and in future, a house loan. Semua ni tak mampu kot nak bayar pakai cash..nama pun keje makan gaji.. HMM. Gee, hantaran awak bayar hutang PTPTN saya je boleh tak? Ihik!

Relationship :

Tipu la tak ada ups and downs. Beberapa bulan ni saya and Gee dah rasa our lowest low, and our highest high. Bersyukur dengan nikmat yang Tuhan beri ni, cuma saya sangat berharap rancangan kami dipermudahkan. Segala yang dilakukan sekarang pun memang mengarah ke rancngan yang sedang dibuat. Dan Alhamdulilah juga Gee and I are on the same page. Umur kami yang nak menginjak 2 tahun ni banyak mematangkan kami, lagipun umur masing2 dah tua, priority pun dah berbeza. Priority sekarang banyak ke arah meneguhkan ekonomi masing2. Risau saya kat Gee kurang sket sbb dia duk dgn family, tapi risau mereka2 kat saya adalah berkali2 ganda. Ye lah perempuan, duk kat tempat orang pulak tu.. Tapi dah sedaya upaya menjaga diri sendiri.. :) Btw tak tahu lah jodoh atau apa, boifren adik and ufah jugak nama bermula dgn huruf AZ.. it might be a coincidence.. A beautiful one.. With dear daddy pun nama start with AZ.. :)

Life has been good to me, it taught me a lot.. IAllah dengan kesempatan yang ada, akan lebih belajar lagi kerana ilmu yang ada ni ceteknya tak dapat di ukur..

Regards, Qila

Doa untuk saya and awak..

2011-08-01T18:03:00.000+08:00

Salam..

Tak sapa boleh nafi yang aku memang seorang yang emotional dan senang terbawak2 dgn perasaan.
Lebih2 lagi dengan orang yg aku syg..

Ya Allah...

Seandainya telah Engkau catatkan...

Dia milikku tercipta buatku...

Satukanlah hatinya dengan hatiku...

Titipkanlah kebahagiaan antara kami...

Agar kemesraan itu abadi...

Ya Allah...

Ya Tuhanku yang Maha Mengasihani...

Seringkanlah kami melayari hidup ini...

Ketepian yang sejahtera dan abadi...

Maka jodohkanlah kami...

Tetapi Ya Allah...

Seandainya telah Engkau takdirkan

Dia bukan milikku...

Bawalah dia jauh daripada pandanganku...

Luputkanlah dia dari ingatanku...

Dan periharalah aku dari kekecewaan...

Ya Allah ya Tuhanku yang Maha Mengerti...

Berikanlah aku kekuatan...

Menolak bayangannya jauh ke dada langit...

Hilang bersama senja yang merah...

Agarku sentiasa tenang...

Walaupun tanpa bersama dengannya...

Ya Allah yang tercinta...

Pasrahkanlah aku dengan takdir-Mu...

Sesungguhnya apa yang telah Engkau takdirkan

Adalah yang terbaik untukku...

Sesungguhnya Engkau Maha Mengetahui...

Segala yang terbaik buat hamba-Mu ini...

Ya Allah...

Cukuplah Engkau sahaja yang menjadi pemeliharaku...

Di dunia dan akhirat...

Dengarkanlah rintihan daripada hamba-Mu yang daif ini...

Jangan Engkau biarkan aku sendirian...

Di dunia ini mahupun di akhirat...

Menjuruskan aku ke arah kamaksiatan dan kemungkaran...

Maka kurniakanlah aku seorang pasangan yang beriman...

Agar aku dan dia sama-sama dapat membina kesejahteraan hidup...

Ke jalan yang Engkau redhai...

Dan kurniakanlah kepadaku keturunan yang soleh dan solehah...

Ya Allah...

Berikanlah kami kebahagiaan di dunia dan akhirat...

Dan periharalah kami dari azab api Neraka...

Amin...amin...Ya rabbal 'aalamin.

...

2011-07-31T16:03:00.000+08:00

No man is worth my tears.

I live and I learn.

Sebab nobody, nobody will catch you when you fall.

And I learn that the hard way.

No man is worth my tears, anymore.

2011-07-19T07:01:00.000+08:00

Salam :)

Let me introduce, my latest obsession. 2 hari tak pegang dah rindu ya amat. Weekend ni nak men2 dgn ini budak. Her name is Jijah hee.

Thanks dear daddy for the gift. Will take good care of it. :)

the need to splurge..

2011-06-25T19:57:00.000+08:00

Salam :)

Weekends! Tapi gaji belom masuk. I iz sad again. HAHA.

Gaji tak masuk lagi tapi macam dah ada plan for the gajizzz.
Macam nak splurge beli anuzzer Longchamp. Tapi kat Penang pun tadak Longchamp.
Nak beli online, kang putih mata dapat yang fake.

Alahai. Lupa.

I have to start paying for my carzzz.

There goes my Longchamp.

I iz saddddddd.

Regards, Qila

7 colours of you

2011-06-20T07:05:00.000+08:00

Salam :)

Kan ada kata2 yang mana Allah turunkan hujan, supaya kita dapat nampak pelangi..
And tu yang saya rasa skrg ni.

Pelangi tu masih samar2, tapi yang pasti ia akan makin terang, iAllah.. Dan yang pasti jugak, hujan akan sentiasa turun, supaya aku lebih menghargai pelangi yang datang selepas hujan reda..

Semoga kita akan tabah menghadapi hujan2 selepas ni, sebab saya nak menikmati pelangi yang cantik, dgn awak. Cuma dgn awak.

Rgrds,
Qla

Kalau...

2011-06-18T22:12:00.000+08:00

Salam.

Kalau sedih kita boleh buat apa?
Makan banyak2 sampai kenyang? (hmm nanti gemok lagi susah hati)
Shopping barang2 tak penting atau retail therapy kononnye? (duit habis. HMM)
Kua tanpa arah tujuan? (wasting my petrol, dah la pakai ron95, lagi cepat evaporate haih)
Bsuka ria tak ingat dunia? (then nak bsuke ria 24/7 ke?bukan boleh buang memory tu)

Tapi rasa nak buat cemni.;

Amik air smyang, solat.
Mnum susu segelas, masuk bilik, off lampu.
Nangis (kalau perlu, it releases your stress tau)
Tutup mata, doa yang esok akan jadi lebih baik.
Itu pun kalau masih boleh bnafas kat bumi Allah.
:)

Things will get better, I promise Aqilah.
Life always goes on.
InsyaAllah.

Rgrds,
Qila

white shoes :)

2011-06-14T22:09:00.000+08:00

Salam :)

A short update..

Sharing this picture.

I am so having this shoe for my wedding day :)

white, with ribbons. :)

Rgrds,

Qla

Come, and go.

2011-05-15T21:21:00.000+08:00

Salam :)

Tamat lah sudah weekend saya. Ill be going to office with a new title this Monday so yeah. Tak tau nak excited or what.

Spend the weekend with Gee and his family, went to Ferringhi, which I havent stepped on since 2nd year hehe. It was colourful, and fun. And nice because I had the time to spend with Gee, especially. Today we spend Sunday by going to Qbay, after dropping CCQ at home, terus shoot Penang. Had my 2nd experience of Fish Spa, which as always, veryyyyy geli!

you are better than the best :)

And then jalan2 around, beli something at Daiso and then had Jcool with baby Jco, Takoyaki at Jusco with the giant sausage. Sangat wisata kuliner. Just titbits as we had a heavy lunch at Nasi Ayam Periuk Besar which as always, is AWESOMEEE. I had a slight urge to tell Gee to stop by my office for a while, but fight that urge and saying, nothing matters that much to me than the people Im with right then. Ill deal with it tomorrow. I will.

And then he dropped me off at home, saying goodbyes to Angah and Acik, perhaps it will be quite some time before I can see them again, Angah is going to Kemaman, with Acik and my Gee so yeah. It makes me down sometimes but then I know what he is doing now is for the future, our future. So Im letting him spread his wings and fly, although we fly in different direction, we both know our destination will be the same. We will see each other again, very, very soon. Time is nothing when you will share a life together, insyaAllah when He permits it.

Dem, I miss my parents, and the thought of dear boyfriend is now going to be in Terengganu too, makes me wanna leave everything, and went back home. Just give me two years, and Ill be home.

Regards, Qila

The call

2011-05-11T21:28:00.000+08:00

Salam :(

Hari ni entry lepas perasaan sikit.

BOLEH TAK JANGAN CALL AKU TIME MAGHRIB?
BOLEH TAK KALAU JGN TANYE SOALAN YANG KAU DA TAU AKU XDE JAWAPAN SEBAB MEMORY OTAK AKU TAK SAMA DENGAN MEMORY PC AKU KAT OFIS?
BOLEH TAK KALAU KAU JANGAN TUNJUK PANDAI SANGAT?

PEH panas gila ni. Serius!Benci kalau orang tanya soalan yang dia tau kita takkan boleh jawab sebab the infos are at the fucking office, and it was already 730pm, office time is fuckin over!

I was really just doing a favour by answering your fucking call!

Rasa nak buat nak block HER fon number after office hours. Nomor orang lain oke je, they dont annoy me so much.

Memang aku pilih org. Well, bad luck, you are not my chosen one.

Fuhh. Tido jom.

Regards, Qila

Engaged? :)

2011-05-05T20:59:00.000+08:00

Salam :)

First of all I am NOT engaged, YET. And perhaps never will be, UNLESS the engagement duration is a day before my wedding day OR few hours before my akad nikah. :) Yep I dont have any plans to get engaged because I prefer to be married straightaway. Skipping the engaged phase, if I can.

So I was suprised when a senior engineer asked me 'Are you engaged?' and I know he is asking not in a gatal manner because he is married, he is not a Muslim and he is OLD. Hee. So I answered 'Engaged? No, not yet. But going to be.' with a smile. Just because he noticed that I wore a ring on my ring finger so he decided to ask. And I like pretending that I am engaged, married to avoid unnecessary attention, not that I got a lot, but just to avoid questions that is closely related to my personal life.

Rings are accessories that I love very much. Not the flashy RM29/piece from F21 or Miss Selfridge or Diva. I rather spend a bomb for a ring that I really2 love than buying 5 rings that is pretty but doesnt last that long. :)
I go for quality, more than quantity for special items like this. Its a one off buy that I just feel like splurging myself that weekend, and yep, I got myself a nice ring. Which makes people mistaken me for being engaged. Which feels nice. :)

This is a very random post. Gee has been very chirpy about my lack of posts, so random goes to you babe :)

Regards, Qila

one year, 6 months.

2011-04-22T22:15:00.001+08:00

Salam :)

Happy birthday to US! Happy anniversary syg, its our 18months birthday :)

Kami sentiasa doa jodoh kita sampai akhir hayat insyaAllah.

Kita jaga apa kita ada, and kita improve apa yang patut k?

I can see my future, and my future have you in it.

Lets be together always, cause you and me as a team, we are pretty damn good. Lets keep it that way.

Thank you, for being my conscience, my confidante, someone I could trust.

I love you.

Regards, Qila

of family..

2011-04-14T20:44:00.000+08:00

Salam :)

Its close to friday and I am in a highhh~ Seronoknya bila weekends are getting nearerrr. Last weekend was the best, my parents was up north, seeing their middle daughter, which havent set foot on Trg soil for almost 4 months~ *sigh* I miss KT bad :(

So the parents' trip was awesome, aside from the accidents we saw on the highway, plus the jams.. And the bad food at Padang Besar *cannot explain* but it was erased when my dearest Gee came, suprised 3 of us by showing up unannounced :) So sebagai seorang Aqilah of courseeee I bagi jelingan hikmat.. Sebab I was sms-ing him the whole journey. Tapi ada dia bagitau? Tadak. Nak kasi suprise. Hamboi :p And I was pretty happy with myself, both my parents chillax je datang cni sebab I was driving, ibu and ayah jadi bos and mem besaqqq :))

Spend some moolah on them, tak banyak pun as my gaji is still ciput but nanti2 insyaAllah.. :) So planning going home on labour day, harap semua goin on smoothly.. Sent them back on Sunday night, with Gee's family and a lot of buah tangan from them, thanks very2 much. The mangga and ikan pekasammmm. Nyummmmy. Sent them with a wave and was relieved when they sms me saying they reach safely. And that weekend was the best.

Then spent Tuesday with Gee, got home early and went off for some food hunting and movie watching. Watched Sucker Punch which is AWESOME :) and spend some quality time together. We both needed that sometimes. Walk around just both of us in our little world :)

This weekend iAllah ill spend it good. My posts now lacks of pictures, I dont find picture taking a neccesity anymore. Ehe, Im getting so oldddddd, but that means Im old enough to kahwin! HAHA. Syg pls jgn takut, but Ill ask u nonetheless..

Will u Mohamad Azizi, ask me to marry you?

HAHA. Im asking u an indirect question, pls answer carefully. :)

Regards, Qila

Whatever, really.

2011-04-03T19:15:00.000+08:00

Salam. :|

Just hoping that I can get through this phase of life. Just hoping that when some things become horribly, horribly wrong, some things can balance it back and make everything all right. Right now, my work is one thing that Im easily frustrated with. And if my personal life become the same thing, I am pretty sure that I will be in trouble. Because right now it seems to me that everything is not all right, and what Im afraid the most is if I am no longer in control. Because if Im not, Ill lose everything. Everything.

So dear WORK,
Pls be nice to me, because you suck me dry from Monday to Friday, from 8am to 530pm, sometimes more.

dear LIFE,
Pls be understanding and if I am selfish like this, pls let me be selfish, I have nothing else to look forward to. If you dont, cant or tired of understanding, tell me and perhaps lets both of us find another place, or even find another life, because we know, we are to precious to be f'ing angry at each other. So tell me dear Life, what is your feeling. And we'll work something out.

Truly right now the only comfort Im getting is the companionship of my handphone. But right now Im not so sure. Seriously I can handle nothing at this moment. Its like a town is at war, and all the guards are down. Enemies keep hitting at the right spot, and within few secs, all is gone.

I hope I can have my guards back.

I hope I can put up a fight.

I hope I wont give in.

Well, I can sure hope right?
And truly when I say those words, you should see my face. Even I dont believe my words.

Whatever, really. As long as I tak susahkan orang lain, seriously, whatever.

Regards,Qila

PLAN

2011-03-23T20:05:00.000+08:00

Salam :|

First time bawak keje balik rumah. Tak pening pun planning. Perghs. Need to concentrate sangat2 and me having short term concentration span... Hopeless.

Tgk baru bukak Production Plan Loading punya Master File dah lencong tulis blog. Pesss. Hee. Mampus sok meeting HUUU :(

I cant help but wondering how is working as an engineer. Bukan tak bersyukur, I mean I can still go for engineer post later in life tapi you know.. Tgk engineer bekerja, its exciting and at the same time sgt stressing. Well my job is stressful too. Boleh gileee. HAHA. IAllah I can cope, just have to manage my time very wisely, kurangkan mistakes and try to think outside the box. Production are full of suprises you know. Hari ni nak jalan this thing, tapi boleh je tgh2 malam call and said they want to run other thing. Production is one thing, planning is the other. Mencuba utk faham di sini ye ;)

Sayanggg nak makan toti bakar pls sama2. I miciuuu.

Rgrds, Qila

2011-03-20T22:27:00.001+08:00

Salam :)

Selamat Tinggal - Zizan Ft Dina

Selamat tinggal kawanku
Tak mudah aku pergi
Bila wajahmu
Sentiasa di hati ini

Dah memang
Bukan mudah untuk ku menerima hakikat
Dalam hidup ini sentiasa ku tersekat
Apa yang ku harapkan
Kasih sayang yang suci murni
Tetapi semuanya hilang setelah kau pergi
Dulu hari-hari ku berwarna warni
Kini kian mendung
Ia tinggal satu memori
Jangan jangan lepaskan genggamanku ini
Hidupku hanya bermakna jika kau di sini
Mana janji mana erti
Kenapa gembiraku kini menjadi sepi
Musnah segala apa yang ku impikan
Tetapi ku tetap tabah
Kerana Tuhan yang menentukan

Kau tetap pergi apakan daya
Walaupun ku telah mencuba sedaya upaya
Ku harapkan ini sesuatu yang kekal
Namun ku terpaksa melepaskanmu baby
Selamat tinggal

Tiada ertinya kau tinggalkan aku
Sedangkan teramat ku mengasihi dirimu
Cuba ingat semua yang kita pernah lalui
Sayang bukalah fikiranmu kembali
Ku tak mahu hidup tanpamu di sisi
Hanya kau seorang yang pernah aku kasihi

Jangan pergi jangan pergi
Jangan tinggalkan aku begini
Jika aku yang engkau cintai
Kenapa semua ini
Kenapa semua ini
Mengapa semua ini
Jika aku yang kau cinta
Mengapa semua ini

Kenapa semua jadi begini
Kenapa mengapa

(jangan pergi, jangan pergi, jangan tinggalkan aku begini)

Selamat tinggal kawanku

(usah pergi)
Tak mudah aku pergi

(jangan biarkan ku menderita)
Bila wajahmu
Sentiasa di hati ini

(aku sentiasa di dalam dada kamu sayang)

Walau ku pergi sayangku

(usah pergi)
Dalam jiwaku ini
Kaulah cintaku yang kekal
Selamat tinggal

(jangan biarkan ku menderita disini, jangan biarkan ku terseksa disini sayang)

Selamat tinggal kawanku

(usah pergi)
Tak mudah aku pergi

Bila wajahmu sentiasa di hati ini

(aku sentiasa di dalam dada kamu sayang)

Walau ku pergi sayangku

(jangan pergi)
Dalam jiwaku ini
Kaulah cintaku yang kekal
Selamat tinggal

(aku menyintai dirimu sayang, jangan biarkan aku sendiri disini sayang)

Kaulah cintaku yang kekal
Selamat tinggal

The song that keeps repeating in my mind. First because I never expect Zizan to sound this good hehe. And second, it gives a story of a friend who is also a lover and how lucky and unlucky for them to meet, part, meet again and part, forever..

Im a sucker for romantic vclips and this is surely one of the vclips that got me teary eyed at the end of it. T_T

Hope my love story will be much happier than this. At least kalau la masa saya nanti tiba, saya harap saya dapat memberitahu orang2 yang saya sayang bahawa saya sayangkan diorang. I want them to know how much I love them.

I should stop. Raining outside and inside ni.

p/s : Appreciate, love and care. Time is something some people dont have much of. I dont know why but I love this quote..

Regards, Qila

To the person I love the most.

2011-03-19T21:12:00.000+08:00

Salam. :)

March 19th. My father is a year older, a year wiser. But I still call him birthday boy, despite he has been the man, the ONLY man that I put higher above anyone at all. The man I love the most, forever. Tak pernah takut untuk cakap akan sayangkan lelaki ini selama2 nya, sebab I know, he will love me forever back. I never say forever to any boyfriends, but to him, he is my forever. My future husband have a big shoe to fill in, because I expect my children to have a father just like my ayah. So dear future husband, pls berguru dengan ayah dulu before thinking of having any mini u and me running around ;)

Sedih tak dapat celebrate, adik was in campus and ufah just landed. Will make it up to them, promise.

Just a shout to my dearest, the person I love the most,

Azman T.A, I love you, and have a nice birthday. Looking forward for your next and next and many many next. I promise if Im not there in person, a text before 8 will arrive, saying..

Happy birthday ayah! Semoga panjang umur, murah rezeki. I love you. :))

I love you.

Regards, Qila

Thank you.

2011-03-16T20:36:00.000+08:00

Salam :)

Alhamdulillah. Bahagia dengan kehidupan sekarang. Walaupun separuh hari dihabiskan dengan memerah otak dan tenaga, tapi at the end of the day, dapat jumpa orang tercinta, dapat dengar khabar,suara keluarga walaupun sekadar telefon je, cukup untuk saya. Sesungguhnya bersyukur dengan keadaan sekarang.

Semoga rezeki saya dan Gee lama di sini. Saya semakin terbiasa dengan ada nya dia. Semoga semua yang kami plan, iAllah akan jadi kenyataan. Doakan saya, dia, kami :)

Thanks Gee, for being here. Thanks, for being you. Thank you.

Regards, Qila

Furry friend

2011-03-13T17:57:00.000+08:00

Salam :(

Gee's baby persian cat dah takde. Nobody is confirmed about her name so I just called her Baby. Baru hari tu main2 dengan baby and she looks fine. Allah lagi sayang kan dia. Sedih sgt. And Im sure Gee's family lagi sedih. IAllah ada rezeki ada lagi adik2 baby yg len. And I myself bila dah ada family nak bela kucing tak kisah lah stray cats or luxury cats kalau ada rezeki.. IAllah..

Gee, nak macam ni pls? So adorablee

*pic from Lowyat.net

Regards, Qila

Random

2011-03-11T22:04:00.000+08:00

Salam :)

Wiken datang lagiiii~ Heee. Seronok2! 2 days of rests. Rest ke? Kadang2 kenaaa je datang kilang. Perghh feeling2 Employee of the month skjap HEE.

Just want to share, I used to love surfing and shopping things online. I mean, kadang2 everyday adaaa je benda sampai. Dah siap boleh hafal and cam bunyi abang PosLaju send barang ha. Tu zaman2 belajar and duit yang ada memang untuk makan and shopping semata2. Sekarang? I still like surfing through the things, tapi cuci mata je la. Shopping online is not a luxury I can afford anymore.Most of my money is for food, rent and gas. Yang lebih2 simpan sikit2 untuk rainy days, macam the time when my car got scratched, sakit hati sangat sebab hari2 tgk so I spent some moolah to repair it. Gone saving 1 month. Haih.

And since I now wear headscarf, I loveee browsing thru blogs yang jual nice and beautiful shawls, scarves. Rasa nak beliiiiiii. Tapi since I dont wear canggih manggih shawl style to work due to my work's nature, rasa rugi pulak. My work requires me to be on the move. Im on my feet every other 5 minutes, ke sana ke mari macam anak ayam. Actually I can settle everything thru fon je, tapi for a newbie macam moi, I rather go and talk face to face to understand that prob. Everything is a lesson, everyday :) So pakai shawl atau clothings yang meletops pun tak guna. Hari2 pakai boyfriend jeans, t shirts with cardi and tudung express. SIAP! :) And lagipun all those beautiful shawls online MAHALLL. I mean memang patut la mahal because of the materials, and the design, tapi pikir 2-3 kali jugak laa nak beli.. sebab for me, yang ada ni pun tak pakai habis lagi weee. So I beli inner kalerful banyak2, so nampak la the difference sedikit sebanyak HAHA.

Random : Lapaq satay and coolblog.. Pretty pls? :)

P/s : #prayforjapan. Hold on strong. Our prayers are for u. And harap2 rakyat Malaysia kat sana semua oke and selamat. Loves.

Regards, Qila

Back just for a while :)

2011-03-05T19:13:00.001+08:00

Salam :)

Been away for quite a longgg time. Perhaps because my February wasnot that fun, but am not regretting anything TEEHEE. So here we are, MARCH! 4 months already into working life... which is...great. 4 months of living up north.. which is... great.

Apa2 lahh but my update for February is

I am 23 on the 18th! Yayyy happy birthday to meeeee :)
I scratched my OWN car, cost me RM200 to repair, my saving for the month, GONE. Sigh. Have to sebab of the guilt have towards my parents. Dem I love them :)
I finally met Polar's baby. She brought a smile to my face everytime I see her :))
Berjaya puasa nafkah batin *WAHAHAHA* batin la sangat haha. Did not see dear bf for a month walaupun the distance is 90km/1h45m drive because he is away everyyy weekeeeendd :p

Oteh thats all.
Tired because of the new wedges which I lurrrrveeeeee and the money spending spree. HAHA. Queensbay sangat menggoda *sigh*

23 :)

So with that..

Regards, Qila

bam bam

2011-02-06T20:11:00.000+08:00

Salam :)

Using that smiley, doesnt mean Im happy. Im very worried ni >:(

Im getting bam bam. I know when I wore my fav jeans it doesnt feel that loose like it used to. (or maybe sebab baru basuh so ketat skit?)

I worked so hard losing the kilos tapi it is soooo easy to get them back! Argh.

This week kena minum susu pagi and malam.

No more nasi. No moooooree.

Wish me luck and harapnya saya akan beristiqamah. Kalau x dinner I can save some moolah and spend it on the weekend. :D

Yes, weekend adalah motivasi.

Hari ni cirit birit God knows why. I saspek the telur sotong is the culprit. Sebab selama ni makan nasi kandar with ayam goreng I takde ape pun? Grrr. No more telur sotong!! :( The housemate bagi petua utk hilangkan cirit birit minum teh pekat tanpa gula. Well it works for me. Selepas 1 hari berulang alik ke toilet. Last sekali merasa camni adalah semasa di Jakarta. 2 minggu I diare oke. Pocari sweat pulak takde kat sini. *sigh*

p/s : hoping 4 bars of gas will last thru the week. Malas nya nak pegi isi minyak. Summo my ride is blocked.
p/s2 : hoping this week will be better thab the week before, InsyaAllah.
p/s3 : Praying for the Muslims at Egypt, moga diorang akan kembali tenang dan lebih rasional selepas apa yang berlaku. Amin

Regards, Qila

Untitled

2011-02-05T09:36:00.000+08:00

Salam :|

Fiuh, cant believe feeling better after spilling everything. Just few words and tears, and Im as good as new. Hoping this feeling will last for a long time. Insya Allah.

Regards, Qila

Life

2011-02-05T09:17:00.000+08:00

Salam :|

What a holiday. Dah nak habis dah pun. Spent it without the people that meant the most for me. Well, that's life kan?

YOU DONT ALWAYS GET WHAT YOU WANT.

Tapi seorang Aqilah bukan nya se'mature' tu. Masih berusaha menjadi seorang yang mempunyai hati yang besar. Tapi selalu je gagal sebab kepala hotak ni dah tune for 22 years - I ALWAYS GET WHAT I WANT, AND WHEN I WANT IT. IF I SAY NOW, I WANT IT NOW.

Bila nak berubah? God knows. Bila nak jadi mature? God knows. Bila nak ada hati yang besar? God knows. Bila nak paham situation? God knows.

Dalam otak macam ada kapas yang tekan kat hidung sampai mata rasa nak keluar and tak boleh nafas. Im feeling like Im having a panic attack. Over and over I keep repetiting to myself. Time is all that I needed, and time is something that I dont have, much. People keep saying, nanti2 ada lah and stuff, tapi menjadi seorang Aqilah, I dislike the word nanti. Walaupun I used it often. I dislike waiting. Anything that can shorten my time to spare for the people who means a lot to me, I hate.

Tapi untuk menenangkan hati, cuma satu ayat je. Dua perkataan.

THAT'S LIFE.

And life is not perfect. Yeah right. Whatever.

***

Yes I am not in a good mood for the past few days(weeks???) and I dont know how to make it right. If anyone have a clue how to be happy-artificially, do let me know *senyum plastik*

Regards, Qila

Stick on it

2011-02-04T23:20:00.003+08:00

Salam.

Nota untuk diri sendiri,

Aqilah,

Sudah-sudahlah menjadi childish.
BURUK.

Yang benar,
sisi gelap seorang Aqilah

Regards, Qila

Sighs

2011-01-30T21:38:00.000+08:00

Salam. :|

The weekend is over. *sigh* Macam2 buat. Went out with the girls, made banoffee, shopping, sesat looking for a baking shop, meroyan dekat Giant.. Tapi feels like something is missing.

Oh I didnt spend time with my bf this weekend. No wonder it 2 days feels longer than it should. Hmm.

.
..
...
....

T_T

I redho.

Is looking forward for another early weekend. Am spending CNY here at Kulim, wont be back at KT. I redho again.

Regards, Qla

Hm~

2011-01-26T20:54:00.000+08:00

Salam :)

Dalam ngantuk2 ni, sempat lg update weee haha. Series ngantuk, sebab letih otak kat ofis and kenyang makan dinner tadi. Macam kucing gemok bergelimpangan haha.

Anywaayyy.. today makan sendiri. Semalam and the day before makan ditemani boyfriend, is the nicest thing that happen to me this week. Rasa macam time belajar2 dulu, he will pick me up and we go have dinner mana2 yang berkenan kat hati, tak kesah pun ada kelas ke tak esok pagi. Kalau ada pun kelas pagi, nak skip pun tak kisah. Sekarang? Boleh ke skip keje? No no no no.. Haruslah paycheck itu angka sama setiap bulan ye. Nasib la berkenalan dengan boyfriend kesayangan masa jadual kitorang pun banyak free, final year student katenya kan. See syg, Im good at planning HAHAH. Tp yang paling bersyukur adalah ditemukan saya dgn dia, walaupun jumpa tiap2 hari for almost 2 years already, tapi pada tahun ketiga baru dipautkan hati dan perasaan. Teringat ada kawan saya sebut pasal kisah kitorang. Cinta Mentos katanya hahaha. A silent observer, tak tahu pun dia observe sebegitu sekali kisah kitorang berdua. And memang our story starts with a packet of Mentos :)

Masih berbaki 2 hari kerja minggu ni. Cepatlah weekend, cepatlah cuti.. Maybe tak jumpa Gee this weekend bcos of his work, tapi terharu sangat bila dia cakap ganti dengan dinner with me for the past 2 days. Bcos he knows I will meroyan if missed out seeing him on the weekend. Nak buat macam mana.. But I will control my meroyan-ness oke. Takmo buat dia susah. :)

Tringat last weekend when I buat meroyan and then dia call slowtalk and everything. Dlu if either one meroyan, yang sorang lagi akan buat keras and meroyan sama. Tanak kalah. Sekarang Alhamdulillah sama2 dah paham kan? Sorang meroyan sorang lagi cub reason out. Give and take :)

Owh dem mata berattttt sgt. Btw Gee, where are uuuu?

Regards, Qila

Life, Ifs.

2011-01-23T11:43:00.000+08:00

Salam :(

In life, I wanted to be understood, but what happens if I dont understand other people enough?
In life, I wanted to stay the same, but what if people around me started saying 'You've changed, why?'
In life, I wanted to appreciate time that has been given to me, but what if other people dont have the time that Iv been blessed with, will I become mature enough to realize that other people dont revolve around me?
In life, I wanted to be the best, but what if the best means sacrificing other people feelings, and even hearts?
In life, I had certain goals, but what if the person involved doesnt want to be a part of it? Should I force them to stay, knowing they're unhappy?
In life, Ive been blessed with many things, but what if those things makes me arrogant, and thinks Im above all of them?
In life, I just want to be happy, but will me being happy make others, unhappy?
Will they love me that much to sacrifice their own happiness, for mine?
Will my conscience be clean when I figure everything out?
Will Ill be able to look myself straight in the eyes, and smile?

I dont think so.

So yes, Im 100% perfect. Perfectly unperfect.
And I have to deal with it.

Regards, Qila

Ouhh

2011-01-22T10:34:00.000+08:00

Salam :)

Its cold this morning. Actually every morning pn sejuk, but I havent got a chance to appreciate, Im always rushing to get ready. Then on a weekend like this, I can finally relax and said, its cold brr.

Wanting to go to Pasar pagi but Im blocked

***

Okay dah habis cerita nak pergi pasar pagi. Pergi dan pulang dah pun ZZZZZ. In the end, I have to move my friend's car in order to get my own out. So pertama kali membawa kereta orang len walaupun glabah tahap cipan. Glabah for wat I dunno sebab kete tu pun auto jugak WEEE. Nama pun barang orang so haruslah saya berasa kurang selesa dan takut jadi apa2.. HMM.

So beli breakfast dan barangan seronok menggunakan bajet minggu ini, ada lebih lagi, HARUS ada lebih untuk menyara kehidupan minggu depan heee. Alhamdulillah, rasanya this month dah start saving some moolah, harapnya akan berterusan. Kalau tak dapat menyimpan lebih, harapnya masih dapat amaun yang sama every month hee.

Tomorrow is a double celebration. My mommy's birthday. I miss her so much. :( and my anniversary with Gee. I miss him too. :(

Regards, Qila

:)

2011-01-17T20:33:00.000+08:00

Salam :)

Just got back from a happy weekend spent with Gee and fam :) Sakit pinggang, bukan sbb drive but sebab Im having the time of the month, so semuaaaa sakit ppfftss. So the time of the month kinda spoil the weekend la a lil bit sbb I was grumpy and my mouth are too lazy to string some words and turn them into sentences. Sorrrryy syg :(

This week is going to be YEAAHH sebab kerja 3 hari sahaja. Thanks to Keputeraan Sultan Kedah and Thaipusam public hols on the same work week. YEAHHH :) Means weekends are going to be much closer heee SUKAA.

So this weekend spent by going to Perlis, just chill with Gee n fam, watching movie(Khurafat btw, boleh laa. Makes Gee jump so kalau nak tgk oke kot. Nex wik we plan to see Shock Labyrinth, kalau the reviews on the net is okay) and just spent time, together. It was nice, sbb the whole idea of us meeting on weekends are just spending time together. I dont need to go shopping, I dont need to watch movies, I dont need to drive around places, I dont even need to eat at special joints, just spending time together is cool enough. For me, sitting at Yasmeen eating nasi kandar and watch people, talk and laugh satisfy me more than watching a movie. Seriously. I love hearing him talk, sebab during our early courtship, I was the one who talks, A LOT. And I seem to spill everything about me so that he will know the worst and the better of me. Becos if he chose to walk away then, I can still mend my heart, I havent fall that hard, and my feelings arent that deep. But he seems to be okay with my flaws, and accept me for who I am. Now its my turn to hear him talk, and we are still learning from each other :)

So it is still isnt too late for me to list what I have accomplished for 2010, kan? ehe. Here goes :)

Graduated and got my Engineering degree :)
Gee meeting my fam and both fam meeting each other :)
We turned 1 year old, Gee+Me :))
I got CCQ :D
I lost 5 kgs TEEHEE
Changed for the better, IAllah, I finally worn tudung. :)
Trying to make living, and being independent, Im now staying at up north.

Some of what I have planned I have still not complished yet, like my plans to get my Masters, my plans to make my parents proud and happy, my plans of having a family, my plans of buying the tiny 'If you think Im cute, you should see my mom' baby rompers, my plans of kitting up CCQ, my plans of buying a house, my plans of many, many things. I wish I am on the right path, and will continue until everything is in my hands.

So syg, my updates for xx weeks, all in one. My days arent that fun, xcept when I get to see you, and those days are only on weekends. So till I see u again nex weekend, I love you, without wax.

Regards, Qila

It rains, it pours.

2011-01-03T14:25:00.000+08:00

Salam :|

Why is it when its all good, its good.
And when its bad, its really bad?
Why cant the good cancels out the bad,
and we can all live happily ever after?

Because we know that this is real life.
If its a fairytale, there'll never be a bad moment in life.
It will always be happily ever after. Always.

And people will always be nice,
People will always think of you, like the way you think of them.
People will always understand, and people will always spreading their arms,
Waiting to give u a big hug.

I am in a need of a warm embrace, and a whisper saying
'Everything will be allright, everything will be allright.'

Regards, Qila

Sunshine

2010-12-27T21:22:00.000+08:00

Salam :)

Updating in the middle of the week? Hmmm doesnt seem like me at all kan? Haha. Is waiting for dear boyfriend to online so decided to update sikit :)

My weekeeeeendddddddd... WAS FUN! I drove all the way to Jitra and made it without getting lost. Hoyeahh. It was the longest journey to date yang saya pernah drive and it was okayy :) So dear boyfriend haruslah percaya kan saya dan bagi saya drive untuk ketemu awak. It was a last minute decision, tiba2 je rasa nak pergi jumpa Gee so called him, wake him up and cakap nak pegi sana. Of cos lah dia tak bagi.. AT FIRST. Then saya pun dah redho and suara jadi lain macam, serius tak buat2 oke sayang hee and then dia cakap, BOLEHH :) So siap2, isi minyak, topup Touch n Go and off I went. The cuaca was nice and sunny so yeahh :)

Spend the day together, it was funn :) Thanks sayang sebab teman altho I know you have a lot to do, thanks thanks thanks. Also thanks for the banoffe and tat telur yang sedappp :)

Ill b smiling all week long, when I remember the time we spent together. :)

Regards, Qila

Auditor, moi~

2010-12-24T19:49:00.000+08:00

Salam :)

Ouhhh da weekendddd! Tepat2 531pm berada di depan scan out untuk scan kad dan berambus weheehe. Walaupun kerja bertimbun nak kena settle before stock count minggu depan. Makluman ye stock count ni adalah untuk this whole year maknanye 1 tahun punya variances, missing items bla bla bla. Sedang serun memikirkan hari rabu dan khamis ni huuu. Perkataan Auditor di sebelah nama saya di dalam email juga menyerunkan saye weee :(

My SV is now warming up towards me, dah boleh ajak sembang and dia pun banyak cerita his experiences. Quote of the day hari ni 'We, as Planners must be very sensitive with the numbers we published'. Ada laa dia cakap dalam 5 kali hari ni HHAHA. But then its true. Planners are the one who synchronize everythng from materials, manpower and also production. Walaupun ia adalah straightforward, I mena semua orang boleh plan, seriously, tapi Planner also have to accomodate or adapt with the management that controls the orders, the shipment and so on. It relates to everything. And you have to think about allllll the little things, because its your job. Man, being a Planner makes you think ahead of the game, and I love the challenge, only if I can stop being sleepy after I have my lunch heheh.

Then after stock count haruslah pulang ke kampung halaman before starting a new year hee :) Im soooo looking forward to see the whole fam :DDD

I was thinking of making a list, tapi nanti lah. Kumpul idea dulu :)

May this weekend be a great one too. :)

Regards, Qila

Till we meet again, love.

2010-12-19T18:58:00.000+08:00

Salam :)

Omaiii dah habis pun weekend. Esok dah Monday balik dah. Sighhhhhh. So how's your weekend? Nice? Mine? It was GREAT :))

On Saturday dear boyfriend come here and bawakme go jalan2 at Penang. We were actually planning to go to PISA for the Career Fair. And of cos dating sekali lahh kan HEEHEE. End up kitorang sesat until 445 but still managed to arrived at PISA beforeeee the fair ended. So masuk tgk2 and drop resumes and everything, settled. Terserempak his cousin and wife with their little boy. SOOO CUTEEEE :))

So before we went to PISA pergi jalan2 at Gurney Plaza, which is not my type sgt sebab a lot of kinda high end punya barang. Not my type sebab kalau beli Ill b using yours truly punya wang ringgit, kalau dengan ayah and ibu, lain cerita HAHAH. So cuci mata and bought these things sahaja :

Little Tree punya air freshener. Gee loves it soo much. :) My fav is Vanillaroma

Then off to PISA. Spend some time there and then pusing to Queensbay. Sebab ramai sangat orang due to TV9 punya SuaRasa we decided to go to Sunway Carnival. Arrive there minum Cool Blog with bubbles yang sedapppp.

Cool Blog!!

After jalan2 at Sunway Carnival then kitorang gerak balik Kulim. He dropped me off and went back. The moment I saw him brings the biggest smile to my face and the moment he says goodbye, makes me go teary eyed inside. But then I know our goodbyes are never that long. We will find a way to make sure that we will always see each other. I must learn how to drive long distance, and he must learn to trust me whenever I started my journey. But its nice, feels like its back to the time when we were both so shy and malu2 and getting to know each other. Rasa macam baru bercinta :) So the distance must be doing sometime right kan? Heheh. But then my limit of not seeing him is 2 weeks. Weekend yang tak jumpa tu mesti emo sekejap and then OK balik. Hahaha. So yea, Im grateful to be able to see him once a fortnight sebab the day I spend with him, makes up for the 13 days Im without him. Thats Gee to me. My happy pill that lasts more than ur Energizer battery, thats even more satisfying than your Baskin Robbin, and is even even more than the rush you get when spending tons of money on things you know, will never matter. Thats Gee to me. Im so lucky bby. :)

Lets stay this way, until we are old and wrinkly. :)

My Eiffel Tower patah. I sedih. :(

P/s: Tak sabar tgk email esok, hope ada GOODNEWS from HR, so I can go back to KT for a vacayyyy :)

P/s2: I love you, Gee :)

Regards, Qila

Salam Awal Muharam semua :)

2010-12-07T10:23:00.000+08:00

Salam :)

Selamat 1432H semua :) Semoga tahun ni lebih berkat dan membawa 1001 kenangan manis untuk kita semua.

Btw hari ni dapat cuti so its nicee dapat lepak2 kat rumah and just do nothing. Tak ramai kat rumah sebab half of us kena kerja. Company besar katakan HEHE. So semalam keluar to watch Rapunzel yang COMELLLL gilaa. Sukeeee heheh. Mata dia bulaaaat sgt. It was fun except for a few unconsiderate people yang bawak anak2 diorang tengok wayang tapi tak boleh duk diam and tendang2 belakang kerusi saya and kawan2. I mean I know the movie is catered for of course lah children tapi mak ayah dia boleh sound or bagitahu beforehand for their children to act accordingly la kan. Tapi perhaps it was our luck yang anak pempuan diorang mengilai tak tentu masa and anak laki dia ajak sembang and jadi comentator plusssssss kaki macam cila**. Nasib tak paham diorang sembang apa kalau tak lagi ada yang kena tarik rambut or kena sound dengan yours truly. I mean anak2 dah besar kot. Mana manners? HMMMM.

Saya memang pantang kalau tengok movie orang belakang tendang2 kerusi because its annoying. And distracting. Sometimes painful. Thats why kalau saya tak puas hati dengan orang belakang saya tak kisah untuk pusing and tell them off. I paid okay for the seat. Yang tendang2 ingat kerusi saya macam kicking pad tu bayar lebih ke? Tak kannnnn. So ikat your feet or go pindah seat sumwhere else because when I get annoyed, I get annoyed badd.

gambar selingan time hujan and lapar altho baru minum shake HAHA. our menu haritu. ayam penyet, daging penyet, telur tahu tempe penyet, sup bakso and sayur pecel. okay sekarang boleh cakap kitorang makan banyak HAHA

Last but not least, have a niceeee dayyy.

Regards, Qila

My sugar coated bf

2010-12-05T22:49:00.000+08:00

Salam. :)

Still hyper from the sugar rush i get whenever i see my bf, unexpectedly. Sukaaa laa buat suprise macam ni haihh. But thats you kan? Suprises left right front back :))

So today bangun awaaaalll, pegi pasar and then petang sikit pergi Proton SC sebab CCQ dah 5k+ km. 30minutes je plus Proton is being nice to me sebab the charge was in my budget so yeaaa! And then pegi kedai dengan Zetty. Gee msg cakap he is on his way. Seorang Aqilah pun menggelabah nak balik and bersiap to meet her bf. Dalam hati berbunga and rasa macam nak jerit sebab tak percaya sangat lucky dapat jumpa Gee semalam and hari ni :))

Went to Ayam Penyet at Perda and makan banyak gilaaaa. Ayam Penyet tu not as expected. Mungkin sebab expectation too high hmm. Nak try yang dekat A.Star plak nanti k bf? :) After that jalan2 and just talk, before he sent me back home after a very nice time spent together.

Thank you for the suprise,again. Thank you for being there for me, again and again. Thank you for being you, again and again and again. And last but not least, thank you, thank you, thank you.

Be safe awak, be safe for u and me.

Regards, Qila

Smiles

2010-12-05T00:17:00.000+08:00

Salam. :))

Updating while waiting for Gee n his sisters to arrive at their home. Tak boleh tido selagi tak tau diorang dah sampai ke belum.

So today unexpectedly, we metttttt :) Actually macam ada plan dia nak datang, but I dont wanna get my hopes too high so just rilex2 saje laa. Lagipun I have plans to go to Jusco Perda with my housemates.. Then tgk2 he's already in BKE. Balik Kulim laa katanyaa. So takpelah, sbb Perda and Kulim is like 40minutes away. Lagipun kitorang baruuu je sampai so tak tau nak kata apa sebab nak balik pun kul brapa tak sure. Masa tu macam HMMMMMM dah. So tgh2 best msg2 ni I saw 3 familiar faces. HIS SISTERS. So cakap kat diorang 'Macamana korang boleh ada kat siniiii?' Then BF sy yang sweet call. Tgk2 my friends dah nampak dia, tapi dia gigih tak mau cariiii sy. Sadis. Then jumpa. Rasa macam mimpi jek. Heeee. I mean I tak expect nak jumpa dia kat Perda. Sooooo masa tu macam AWWWWWW... Bila bau his perfume baru lah macam percaya he's there, there. Hehehe. So spend time jalan2 sekejap then balik to meet his family.

All in all, it was a great day. Grateful for every moment that we both shared. The distance doesnot matter, time doesnot matter. What matters is how we feel every day, together. Meeting you for few hours when I miss you the most is the best reward I can give myself after going through so much. You are my reward. I love you, without wax.

Regards, Aqila

After so long :)

2010-12-04T08:59:00.000+08:00

Salam :)

Good morning sunshineeessss. Lamanyaaa x update. Mcm bz sgt je. Mmg bz punnnnn. Masuk je hari ke3 terus dibagi training sebagai seorang Production Planner. Fiuhhhsss. Sbbnye saya kena ganti seorang staf yang akan resign approx 4 hari lepas saya masuk. And natijahnye (amik kau) saya beraya haji di ofis.. sambil memakai baju kurung dan rasa nk menitik air mata setiap kali operator tanya 'Tak raya ke?'. Kekdahnye tak laa hakak uiii.. Huwaaa. Tapi nasib baik, boleh claim! So xpelah keje from 9-5 bila hari raya..

So weekdays mmg hectic.. 8-6 every day. Keje banyakkk. Klu x ada keje means u r doing something wrong.

So mcm2 benda nak kena belajar supaye jadi lg efisien. Heee. Klu weekend plak diisi dengan jogging and aerobik around 730 and then meronggeng kat pasar pagi lepas tu petang kalau bosan keluar. Last week jumpa bf and bestfriends dari UniMAP so it was nice. Lamaa kot x jumpaaa.

rasa nak beli and baca buku ni depan ibu. HAHAHAA

So all in all life's good. Pressure is there tapi I learn to cope lah. Have to la kan. mesti boleh buat punya. Problems are there to be solved. Kalau takde just scream

'(nama supervisor), how can I fix thisssss?'

HAHAA. Mesti my SV dah menyampah sebab selalu sgt tanya macam2.

Btw, bf, saya rindu awak. Nanti kita plan jumpa lagi k. Last week was awesome. U are awesome. Baca buku kat atas jugak pls. HAHAHA. Lebiuu

Regards, Qila

Untitled

2010-11-08T21:49:00.000+08:00

Salam :)

Baru sudah bake choc cake untuk bawak esok pegi ofis. Baauuu sedappp. Memang nk bawak untuk diorang cuma tak tahu bila. Pastu jugak sedikit stressed hari ni so tu yang baking tu. Baking eases my temper and stress. Tapi baking je la, not the eating part. Sia2 the weight I lost kalau makan tak hengat ni kan..

So I am going to Kulim. To work. A little nervous, macam masa baru2 mula keje sekarang ni. Semoga semuanya oke. Walaupun berat rasa nak tinggal my family, tapi I need to go there, to satisfy my curiosity. Dah belajar pun engineering, kena rasa susah senang jadi engineer. And if I dont like it, Ill come back home, and perhaps find another job, tapi I really want to apply what I have learnt during my degree years.

And untuk kawan2 yang apply for KPLI sesi 2011, boleh check dah untuk Mtest. Semua pusat akan buat 13hb Nov so pls check sebab kalau terlepas, that's it la. Kena tunggu untuk intake July pulak kalau tak silap. Buat elok2, and pls tekadkan dalam hati untuk menjadi seorang guru yang menyumbang kepada masyarakat, bukan semata untuk ada kerja. Saya terpaksa melepaskan peluang ke Mtest sebab masa tu dah berada di utara dan tempat mengambil Mtest tu memang tak leh nak ubah. Ada hikmah mungkin. Mungkin saya tak sesuai untuk menjadi guru. Biarlah jadi guru untuk anak2 je nanti. Tapi saya yakin kalau memang rezeki saya untuk menjadi guru ada, lambat cepat pasti peluang tu tiba. Tapi kalau bukan takdir saya menjadi seorang guru, dah pass berlapis2 interview pun tetap takkan dipanggil cikgu. So kesimpulannya saya redha. Perlu kerana melihat ibu and ayah yang ralat sebab anaknya kehilangan satu peluang. They know how much I wanted this. Tapi kami redha. For now, Kulim is my future.

And weekend lepas saya menambah sesuatu dalam senarai aset haha.

mata aneh, pls ignore.

My new specs. Mata kabur and specs lama dah calar gila2. Mula2 just nak tukar glasses je, tp dengan kebanyakan songeh akak di kedai itu, ibu decided to belanja me new specs. Alhamdulillah. Glasses pakai yang anti calar punya so tak de alasan nak tuka2 lagi for the next emmm 5 years? hahah.

Nothing much about my life, but I try to make them as interesting as possible. :)

Take care, might be busy this week so be safe ppl.

Regards, Qila

Its raining

2010-10-31T18:40:00.000+08:00

Salam :)

Its raining, my boyfriend's in Songkhla and I miss texting him. So busy even fb msg pun tak reply hmmphhh. I used fb text msg sbb both of us subscribe to Fb Text by Celcom and sending out msgs, walls or anything tak kena bayar! Just bayar the RM1 every week! So sgt bagus when one of us is out of the country, no need RM2/msg. Kopak kot.

But I found this quote that I wanted to share for so long, but often forget about it. :)

When u realize u want to spend the rest of your life w/ somebody, u want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible

Brings a smile to my busuk face. Hhehe. Pening kena hujan.

Regards, Qila

Impossible

2010-10-28T21:55:00.001+08:00

Salam. :|

Mixed feelings now and then.

Baru teringat baju banyakkkk gila tak basuh lagi.
Baru teringat bilik kena kemass.
Besok nak buat kek, petang tadi tak sempat sebab pegi beli tudung WEHEHEH.
Have to mandikan cucoq summo.
Unable to cyber date sebab Gee punya laptop is having problem. :(
Nak buat kirigami lagi! Baru buat utk Gee for our anniversary hari tuuu. Btw kirigami is a pop up card art. Kiri/kiru means to cut and kami means paper in Japanese. It just adds that little extra laa to any ordinary cards :) Tapi kinda malas to potong2 the paper. Huahuahua.

the kirigami :)

Btw,

Have a good weekend guys.

Muchhh lovee

Regards, Qila

Loooveeee

2010-10-25T19:34:00.000+08:00

Salam :)

Balik2 surf kasut crocs. Gila x? Hahaahah. Mmg berkenan this one crocs, tapi haruslah KT ada crocs outlet kan. Koroks ada la. So nanti bila Malindi dah haus, boleh la beli the one that have the purple spiral2 tuuu. Gewaaaaammm. Hee.

the one in bluey purpley

sigh.. cantiknyaa!

all pics credit to google

And the paisley pattern is like my faaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaav pattern on tudung and on baju kurung. Sigh. Cantik gila. Pagi td masa breakfast jumpa this one kakak yang pakai pattern macam atas untuk baju kurung dia, tapi kain dia kain kosong warna hijau. Cantikk sgt! I have two yang ala2 pattern macam ni tapi both kaina re bought in Jakarta. Nak cari lagi kat cni pulak. Falllll in loveee. Tudung pun ada yang corak camni. Kadang2 beli warna lain2, corak sama. I sangguuup hhaha. So misi mencari untuk menambah koleksi lagi yeh yehh.

So I kinda blog on raaandom stuffs during weekdays, kalau weekdays saye ngeng sket. So bear with me he he.

Regards, Qila

Setahun.

2010-10-23T00:00:00.001+08:00

Salam :)

23rd October 2009. We turned into a team.
23rd October 2010. We are now 1 year old.

Happy first anniversary, Gee. 365 days full of sweet and spice. 365 days yang mematangkan. 365 days of being in love, walaupun ada waktu2 dalam 365 hari tu yang kita masam muka, bergaduh, berselisih faham. Tapi we made through it, sebab semua tu benda remeh, for you and for me.

Terima kasih atas 365 hari ni, for being there for me, for taking care of me. For being my confidante, for being my reminder. I appreciate you so much, Im grateful for each and every single moment that we both share :)

I may be far away, but trust me, Im always with you.

I miss having my purple green day with you. I miss you.

Happy anniversary, love.

Regards, Qila

Talking is therapy :)

2010-10-16T19:19:00.002+08:00

Salam :)

Just got back from a date with the bff at Batu Burok which I have not visited from bila entah. I mean Iv been to the a&w and around the jogging course, tapi to actually jalan on the beach, its been a while laa. So parked at the cafe/bistro whatever kat plaza tuh sebab we plan nak minum kat situ je. Tapi yang ada hanyalah air tin.. So kalau nak minum air tin, saya pegi vending machine pon bleh. So pegi la check out kemeriahan kat pantai tu. Ada ape ntah polis2 segala with konsert. Tak menarik.. Walk summo, pegi la Awe @ A&W. Makan fruitty waffle. Nice, tapi muak. So talked quite a lot, I reaaalllyy needed to let off some steams and laughing is truly the best. I cant have her every single day, tapi I really hope we can have some besties time on the weekend, just talk trash, and be ourself.

Kadang2 in life nak jadi diri sendiri adalah susah, especially bila kita di kalangan minoriti. Or when you have a very neutral personality. I myself admit when it comes to new group of people, I tend to be the quiet person, or the one who doesnot talk much. But when you get to know me, Im quite oke actually :) Its not that I dont make an effort, I do. Tapi when its only me, only 1 side yang try, I cant be blame for being quiet kan?

Rambut sama hitam, hati lain-lain. I cant read whats in people minds, what they think of me. Buruk, baik kita je yang tahu. Nak cakap be yourself? Nahh. Ill just be what I needed to be. Only after 5 and weekends Im being myself. Starting at 8, Im a whole new person.

Welcome weekdays, Ill try my best and if I ever stop trying, Ill stop with my heads held up high.

p/s: I need my uni friends.. SO SO SO SO BAD..
p/s2 : I miss Gee.

Regards, Qila

CONTEST MORTAR BOARD : THE BEAUTY IN UGLY

2010-10-15T21:43:00.003+08:00

my fav shot :)

Salam..

So dapat contest ni dari Cik Bihah, teringin jugak nak masuk. Hehe. Konvo dah nak dekat 2 bulan dah. Rindu sangat dengan kawan2 uni. I'Allah ada rezeki nak jumpa lagi. Tak semestinya korang tak ada dalam gambar ni saya tak ingat tau. U guys adalah kawan2 terbaik, dan are always on my mind. Love love love u guys.

Dengan itu, saya tag rakan2 seperti

Has
Anisssss
Onie
Faza
dan sapa2 lagi yang teringin nak join. :))) click je kat banner tu untuk maklumat lanjut :)

Goodluck kepada semua yang join :))

Regards, Qila

Friday

2010-10-15T10:02:00.000+08:00

Salam :)

Bangun dengan senyum hari ni sebab hari jumaat. Weekend. Plak tu dear sista is home. Meriah la sikit rumah. Hmm.

Ni adalah tips2 untuk orang yang akan mula kerja dari pandangan saya :

Environment - Ramai makcik2 pakcik2 atau orang sebaya. Topik perbualan sangat berbeza. Kalau environment yang best, datang kerja akan jadi satu escape. Kalau tak best, it will be a long day.
Skop kerja - Kalau buat benda yang kita belajar, it makes you think. Kalau benda yang sama hari2, it makes you slow.
Office hours - Kalau dekat government, sure2 akan balik at 430/5/530. Kalau kat private, atas kerja dah siap.
Motivation - sama ada gaji yang besar, ada pempuan cun/ laki hensem, ada bos yang baik, atau ada kawan baik.

All in all, bagi saya masih ada peluang untuk saya bekerja di bidang saya sendiri. Cuma mencari the place and the time. It doesnot have to be perfect, it just have to make me happy.

Saya dah biasa mendengar kata-kata semangat dari kawan2 semasa saya sendiri masih mencari sebuah tempat untuk menjalankan amanah sebagai seorang yang bekerja, tapi bagi saya sesuatu itu kalau rezeki kita, pasti lambat cepat akan dapat. Tapi kalau dah ditentukan Dia yang tempat itu bukan untuk kita, harus diterima. Dia lebih tahu rezeki kita di mana, cuma yang paling penting adalah berusaha.

Regards, Qila

101010

2010-10-10T17:45:00.000+08:00

Salam :|

Hari pertama bekerja. Fiuh penat dan awkward! Sekarang merangkap jawatan pelatih di Pejabat Pendidikan Daerah, dan waktu kerja 8-5. Lainnya suasanaaa. Yang seumur tak ada, tapi tetap meyakinkan diri I can do it, I can get through this.

Bersyukur dengan kesempatan yang diberi, akan mencuba menjadi pelatih yang menyumbang.

Selamat berkhidmat untuk negeri, Qila.

Regards, Qila

Simple

2010-10-08T11:39:00.000+08:00

Salam :)

Jumaat y'all. Cutiii. Padahal hari2 cuti ahahaah. Bangun makan nasi minyak ayam kampung lepas tu buat Puding Roti. Kemas2 dapur.

Then gatal tangan pegi surf kat Radiusite.. Tengok tudung cantik2 jadi GERAMMM GILAAA. Tapi tudung cantik2 ni pakai kalau ada event2 penting je la.. Takkan hari2 nak pakai tudung cantik kan? Haruslah tudung cantik tu warna hitam yang boleh match dengan semua baju hahaha. Satu hari nanti, saya akan pakai tudung2 cantik ni. HOYEAHH

Weekend ni akan ber-getaway. Yayy.

Regards, Qila

Nyam

2010-10-07T21:03:00.001+08:00

Salam :)

Burp. Alhamdulillah. Baru sudah dinner. Kenyaaangg. Menu malam ni ikan sweet sour and tempe goreng. Simple je, tapiiiii.. Sedapppp!

So Ive always been a tempe-fan sejak bila I dont know. So bila pegi Giant mesti cari tempe. Bila jumpa macam anak jawa yang dah lama tak makan tempe je. =.= Dulu time kat uni kalau cafe buat tempe sure amik. Banyakkk gilaa. Sampai nak jeluak. Hahaah. Tamak halobaaa.

tempe. sedapnye....

Nasi ayam penyet.. Rindu..

Pics from Google

The next pic is Nasi Ayam Penyet. Nope I havent had this for more than a year. Sadis. Dulu masa kat Jakarta kalau boleh nk makan every day. Waroeng tu pun nama dia Hari-Hari. Tapi malu kot kat abang2 kedai tu, mestila diorang ingat kitorang ni doyannnn gilaaaa kat NAsi dia. Tapi memang sedap pun!! Rp 10,000 sahaja atau bersamaan RM3.50. Kalau tambah tempe Rp 12,000 per porsi. Tak la cantik macam ni nasi dia. Nama pun waroeng. Tapi memang KAW. Cili hijau dia.. Perghhh meletop BLA BLA BLA(macam iklan Celcom pls). Btw yang habuk2 lps goreng tu kat sana dia dipanggil Kremes. Kat Malaysia saya tak pernah try lagi, but I guess tak mungkin kot RM3.50 sepinggan. Kan? Setiap kali lepas makan ni sure perut panas, badan peluh2. Macam eksesais baekkk punya. Seriously I miss that place.

Area Jakarta Barat yang saya pernah duduk tu memang banyak universitas, so banyak la rumah2 yang disewakan untuk student, atau dipanggil kost kat sana. So bila banyak kostan2 ni, secara automatik banyak kedai2 makan yang harganya di cater untuk students. Kalau rasa nak makan banyak boleh makan Gurame goreng sorang2, around Rp 13,000 for ikan and nasi and sambal. Tu dah kira macam WAW sebab Gurame tu cukup kalau 2 orang makan HAAHA. Saya memang habiskan banyak duit untuk beli jajan dengan air macam Pocari Sweat dgn Aqua. Cirit birit la katekan.. Hahaha

So feeling2 rasa nak makan ayam penyet.. Helpppp.

Regards, Qila

Syria! The tudung, not the place

2010-10-06T12:07:00.000+08:00

Salam :)

Went out to buy groceries and seperti biasa mestilah shopping sikit2 dgn pocket money yg diberi hahah. Typical laah :p

So try beli tudung syria ni dia satu set dgn anak tudung sekali. RM15. I thought what the hell la try beli je he he he. Ni my 1st syria mind you.

So hasilnya :

BUROKKK

masih BUROKKK lagi

Cuba try pin

Try macam ni

I look presentable!!! YAaaayy

Konklusinya, muka saya tak SESUAI pakai tudung syria. So boleh je nak beli tudung ni, tp kena pin supaya muka nampak senonoh. But then hilang lah ke-syria-an dia kan? Ada aku kesahh? HAHAAHAHAHA.

Regards, Qila

Sharing is Caring

2010-10-05T20:08:00.000+08:00

Why should a Muslim woman wear the Hijab?

1.You please Allah. You are obeying the commands of your Lord when you wear the hijaab and you can expect great rewards in return.

2.It is Allah’s protection of your natural beauty. You are too precious to be ‘on display’ for each man to see.

3.It is Allah’s preservation of your chastity.

4.Allah purifies your heart and mind through the hijaab.

5.Allah beautifies your inner and outer countenance with hijaab. Outwardly your hijaab reflects innocence, purity, modesty, shyness, serenity, contentment and obedience to your Lord. Inwardly you cultivate the same.

6.Allah defines your femininity through the hijaab. You are a woman who respects her womanhood. Allah wants you to be respected by others, and for you to respect yourself.

7.Allah raises your dignity through the hijaab. When a strange man looks at you, he respects you because he sees that you respect yourself.

8.Allah protects your honour 100% through your hijaab. Men do not gaze at you in a sensual way, they do not approach you in a sensual way, and neither do they speak to you in a sensual way. Rather, a man holds you in high esteem and that is just by one glance at you!

9.Allah gives you nobility through the hijaab. You are noble not degraded because you covered not naked.

10.Allah demonstrates your equality as a Muslim woman through the hijaab. Your Lord bestows upon you equal worth as your male counterpart, and gives you a host of beautiful rights and liberties. You express your acceptance of these unique rights by putting on the hijaab.

11.Allah defines your role as a Muslim woman through the hijaab. You are a someone with important duties. You are a reflection of a woman of action not idle pursuits. You display your sense of direction and purpose through your hijaab. You are someone that people take seriously.

12.Allah expresses your independence through the hijaab. You are stating clearly that you are an obedient servant of the Greatest Master. You will obey no one else and follow no other way. You are not a slave to any man, nor a slave to any nation. You are free and independent from all man-made systems.

13.Allah gives you the freedom of movement and expression through the hijaab. You are able to move about and communicate without fear of harassment. Your hijaab gives you a unique confidence.

14.Allah wants others to treat you – a Muslim woman - with kindness. And the hijaab brings about the best treatment of men towards you.

15.Allah wants your beauty to be preserved and saved for just one man to enjoy – your husband.

16.Allah helps you to enjoy a successful marriage through wearing hijaab. Because you reserve your beauty for one man alone, your husband’s love for you increases, he cherishes you more, he respects you more and he honours you more. So your hijaab contributes to a successful and lasting marriage relationship.

17.Allah brings about peace and stability in the society through the hijaab! Yes this is true! Men do not cause corruption by forming illegal relationships because you - the Muslim woman - calm their passions. When a man looks at you, he feels at ease, not tempted to fornicate.

Copas from Zie

Perasan tak everything that is beautiful is usually covered? :)

Setiap hari, doa saya adalah supaya saya menjadi seorang yang lebih baik mentally, and physically. Semoga semua temptation yang ada di sekeliling ni dapat ditolak dengan cara yang paling berhemah, insyaAllah.

Regards, Qila

A special suprise :)

2010-10-05T20:00:00.000+08:00

Salam :))

So berkaitan dgn title blog, a suprise that happens to be delivered by abang Poslaju in a plastic parcel that brought a smile to my face :) Hehe thanks to Cik Bihah for being soooo generous in her personal blog by giving me this top that i LOVE LOVE LOVE. Lagi pulak in GREEN, mmg my fav colour. So thanks again Bihah, semoga blogshop akan bertambah maju di masa hadapan! And kepada sesiapa yang terbaca blog ni, go check out her blogshop, maybe ada yang akan bkenan di hati :))

the cute top :)

Its been awhile since Ive got a parcel from Poslaju. Nampak sangat dah takde source nak shopping online, and pulak my M2U is still blocked, which is a good thing, kalau tak, the little amount in the account will decrease to being null kot. *sigh*

So this has made my week and Im still figuring out bilaaa nak pakai this top. Wish can go dating2 with Gee so ade la alasan nak pakai cantik2. Kalau nak pegi Giant baik pakai tshirt and jeans sahaja okay. Hmm.

Finished The Lost Symbol like 2 days ago, nanti nak re-read lagi sebab sometimes ada hidden things that u missed the first time you read it. Sbb I tend to speed reading bila tiba page2 yang macam bosan HAHA.

Watched Downsize Me pagi tadi, and it just give me more motivations of trying to keep myself healthy. I want to live and experience many, many things. So by taking care of myself, will permit me doing just that.

Nothing interesting going on, will write if I have any ideas later.

p/s : Bilaa la torren The social Network nak keluar.. I seriusly nak tgk.

Regards, Qila

missing.

2010-10-02T22:10:00.000+08:00

Salam :|

I miss my friends

I miss the pressure.

I miss the environment.

And most of all,

I miss my boyfriend.

Regards, Qila

boooksss

2010-10-01T21:00:00.000+08:00

Salam :)

Just got back from Kerteh, yet again settling for dear sista punya rumah. Finally everything is in place, we clean the house and make it our own by some DEKO DEKO DEKOOO (nyanyi suara mcm Eric Leong pls). The house was nice, dear sista wants me to come on weekends, or whenever I am bored, so I can be her bibik. Nak suruh masak I boleh, mengemas I malas oke? Hahaha. The mini bar wasnot working, need to get it fixed. So she have tomorrow to settle everything before working on Sunday.

I am dead tired, altho I didnt do a lot. Mesra Mall seems so close right now, pegi sana every other weekend. Haahah. Gee will be busy with his cousin wedding so I bought a distraction, namely a BOOK. Its been awhile and I had re-read most of the books I have like 10++ times, and boyyyy I have A LOT of books. Its an old hobby, that sticks with me since I can read. I love English, and I am pretty good at it. Alhamdulillah.

The Lost Symbol- Dan Brown

Well I want to get started, so while waiting for Gee, Il start reading.

p/s: I cant wait seeing Gee in PINK. HEHEEHEEHEH

Salah orang ni bang

2010-09-28T11:02:00.000+08:00

Salam :?

Okayy tadi dapat call from unknown num asking for not Qila soooo I quickly said, wrong numbaaa.

Tapi bila fikir balik he kinda sebut keekee. Or Gg.

Keekee is my tipu name in a few websites that I use for selling some of my stuffs. While Gg is my bf's nickname. My bf wont gve my num to ppl, he also wont call me that name. WAKAKAKA.

Tapi my num is not in the advert.

And usually I use my Celcom num for any transaction. Usually given after potential buyer email me first.

Keekee and my maxis number are never put in a same sentence.

Lagipun I only entertain calls yang involved potential employers now. And I dont put my screen nickname in my resume. Working history doesnot include selling Dorothy Perkins shirt online. But I could write self entrepreneur kan? Hahaha.

Btw, kalau betul nak cari, he'll call again. Or text. Or find a way. HAHA

Regards, Qila

Seperti mahu ber-wayang~~

2010-09-27T21:01:00.000+08:00

Salam :)

Sekarang tengah download How I Met Your Mother season 4. Yaaaaayy. My fav tv show sebab biasa tengok dari kul 8.45pg-11.30pg HAHAHA. Mmg best, so gigih ni nak download. Scrubs dah tak ada, maybe new season tak keluar lagi kot. *sigh*

Sekarang pun teringinnnn nak tengok Wall Street dgn Going the Distance, tapi haruslah TGV dekat Kerteh tu ada kan? Lagipun Kerteh is 1 hour 45 min away from dear KT so, gigih tak???? Btw Burger King Mesra Mall tak sedap. Dah la mintak benda lain dapat benda lain. Mencikkk. Baik pegi mentekadarah Donashi. Lagi kenyang.

Masa kat Mesra Mall jugak beli selai tudung Hajra warna hitam. Seperti biasa lah warna hitam warna fav. My first tudung express. Dapat feedback positip antaranya muka tak bulat macam pakai selendang. Hahaha. Yang best ibu cakap nanti dia bawak pegi tempat biasa dia beli tudung instant ni and saya boleh pilih watever colour yang saya sukaaaaaa. Omaiii~

Hmm keraaaap sgt tgk kat FB ni kawan2 sendiri update benda2 seperti

'Esok kerjaaa. MALASNYAA'

'Letih lah hari-hari kerjaaa'

'Kerja dah siap, tapi dapat kerja lain lagi. Benciiiii'

*ayat hanyalah rekaan hehe*

Anda dapat point saya? Ni kawan2 yang dah dapat kerja tapi macam menyesal plak bekerja. Bersyukur laa. Orang seperti saya yang masih tercari2 kerja ni kadang2 geleng kepala, meluat pun ada bila baca. Nak tarik perhatian orang atau nak remind semua kawan2 yang anda sekarang dah bekerjaya? Kerja tu amanah, so bila dapat, kena betul2 appreciate.. Dalam semua benda pun. Dah ada kerja merungut tak ada kerja, tak ada kerja merungut nak kerja. Kenapa tak boleh put urself in others shoes? Kalau nak sangat bagitau dah ada kerja, you can edit it at your FB info, senang. Yes I am bitter bila jumpa orang yang tak reti berterimakasih pada rezeki sendiri.

Dan 1 lagi, kali ni pasal tingkah laku kita sendiri. Saya selalu doa mintak benda2 ni dijauhkan. Kadang2 baca kat wall kawan2 perempuan mencarut dan cakap perkataan2 tak berapa nak elok buat saya terfikir, kenapa la orang belajar universiti boleh keluarkan perkataan macam tu. Saya rasa kalau minah rempit dengar pun boleh blushing. Saya masih belum ada kekuatan untuk menegur, mungkin sebab we have histories together. Bila baca benda2 tu, saya ingatkan diri saya, sebetapa marah pun kita, sebetapa geram pun kita, perkataan kita harus dijaga. Tak payah mempengaruh manusia dengan kata2, bagi saya seseorang itu cukup hebat bila dia boleh mempengaruh manusia dengan cara mengikuti teladannya.

Cantik seorang wanita, bergantung pada tutur katanya.

Regards, Qila

Pilihanku

2010-09-24T20:24:00.000+08:00

Pilihanku - Maliq and The Essentials

Berjuta rasa rasa yang tak mampu diungkapkan kata-kata
Dengan beribu cara-cara kau selalu membuat ku bahagia
Kau adalah alasan dan jawaban atas semua pertanyaan
Yang benar-benar kuinginkan hanyalah kau untuk selalu di sini ada untukku

Maukah kau tuk menjadi pilihanku
Menjadi yang terakhir dalam hidupku
Maukah kau tuk menjadi yang pertama
Yang selalu ada di saat pagi ku membuka mata

Oh..
Ijinkan aku memilikimu, mengasihimu, menjagamu, menyayangimu,
memberi cinta
memberi semua yang engkau inginkan
selama aku mampu aku akan berusaha
mewujudkan semua impian dan harapan
tuk menjadi kenyataan

Maukah kau tuk menjadi pilihanku
Menjadi yang terakhir dalam hidupku
Maukah kau tuk menjadi yang pertama
Yang slalu ada di saat pagi ku membuka mata

Jadilah yang terakhir
Tuk jadi yang pertama
Tuk jadi selamanya…

Maukah kau tuk menjadi pilihanku
Menjadi yang terakhir dalam hidupku
Maukah kau tuk menjadi yang pertama
Yang selalu ada di saat pagi ku

Maukah kau tuk menjadi pilihanku
Menjadi yang terakhir dalam hidupku
Maukah kau tuk menjadi yang pertama
Yang selalu ada di saat pagi ku membuka mata

Jadilah yang terakhir
Tuk jadi yang pertama
Tuk jadi selamanya….

XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

Salam :)

Opening entri blog ni adalah satu lagu yang boleh dikira amat meaningful dalam hidup seorang Aqilah. Hehe. Dulu lagu ni jadi ringtone hp, sekarang its a little bit more exclusive sbb dah set ringtone ni to Gee saje. Hee.

I to be honest tak pernah amik kesah pasal the band, tapi after my exchange program to Indonesia, I started to listen to the songs, and grown to love them all. Best gilaa. But by far this is my fav track, and also Dia, Terdiam, Kangen.. Many more lahh. So soothing, I used to listen to this like 32387467463764 times on my ipod.

Try and give it a go. This is real, good music y'all.

And to Gee

Maukah kau tuk, menjadi pilihan ku, menjadi yang terakhir dalam hidupku?

Dan maukah kau tuk menjadi yang pertama yang selalu ada di saat pagi ku membuka mata?

Regards, Qila

its our 11 :)

2010-09-22T23:33:00.000+08:00

Salam :)

Its been 11 months of being together exclusively. Another month, would mark our 1st year as a couple. Banyak memories susah senang yang kitorang share. And awak, thanks very much for coming here. It means a lot. I take it as my anniversary present, thanks thanks thanks. I got you nothing, except my presence here, trying to be a great hostess, which I think failed miserably, but you know I tried my best, I let you experience my daily life, where I go, what I like about this so-called Bandaraya. Now when I go to those places, I could smile and say 'Thats where we both sat and eat nasi minyak for breakfast'.. Or 'That's where I almost hit a guy, or scratched a car'.. I see you everywhere, now that we've been there, together. There's sooo many places I wished I could take you. Eating joints especially. The beaches, yes, I love the beaches. But most of all, I am contented to just be sitting in the car, parked under a tree, and just talked. Or browsing your car magazines. Or watch you play your console.

11 months and I still can't get enough of your presence. 11 months and I still learn something new about you every day. 11 months and it still feels like the first few days of when we agree that what we both have is more than just plain friends. It was nice, Its still nice, and I got a feeling it will be nice for a long time. :)

Thanks syg, untuk 11 bulan yang mendewasakan saya. Jom kita jadikan 11 yang seterusnya adalah 11 tahun pulak. I can't wait. :)

Regards, Qila

A beautiful suprise

2010-09-21T22:20:00.000+08:00

Salam :DD

Can you see how happy I am? Im that happy, I showed all my rabbit teeth.

Gee, thanks for a lovely day. It was hot, and my aircond is not that cooling, and I dunno where to bawak you jalan2 with all that heat, but we make do with what we have, and we had fun kan? Like we always do. Remember the highway cruising? I miss that. Lets do this again. And again. And again. Lebiu.

Miss u already.

Regards, Qila

Hm

2010-09-17T19:57:00.001+08:00

the family - courtesy of the timer

jump baby, jump

my fav snap!

Salam :)

Selamat Raya 6 guys! Especially for dear daddy, hari ni dia rayaaa so cooked Makaroni Goreng Pedas with Cotton Vanilla Cheesecake.. And also nak jamu my bestfriends yang datang beraya hari ni.. Alhamdulillah, feedback yang positip! Yeaayy nanti boel buat lagi har har har. Suka la hal2 untuk menggemukkan orang ni teehee..

Raya was fun, Alhamdulillah banyak jumpa kawan2 lama raya kali ni. Memberanikan diri ke reunion sekolah rendah, and guess what? I had funnnn!!! Jumpa bestfriend masa sekolah rendah, after nearly 10 years lah tak jumpa. Seronok, serius. Everyone changed, but we're still the same :) Kids at heart hahah.

Then hari2 lain pegi rumah this friend and that friend bla3.. Fun! Yang penting still dapat duit raya, harap2 ni tahun terakhir lah. Nex year nak bagi duit raya pulak walaupun RM5! Hahahaah. So kutipan Alhamdulillah, thanks to dear sista and mommy and daddy :) Is putting half of it dalam ASB and half lagi to splurge on my hobby! Beli barang2 kek heee :) Kawan2 plak seme keje KT so boleh je jamu diorang bila buat benda2 ni. Satisfaction bila orang makan apa yang kita buat :))

Regards, Qila

Selamat Hari Raya 1431H

2010-09-09T22:48:00.000+08:00

Salam.

Okay quick post. Have to turun bawah beforeeeee telinga merah kena marah weheeheheh.

Anywayyyyy,

SELAMAT AIDILFITRI EVERYONE!!

Have a blast!

Maaf Zahir Batin oke?

Will be missing dear boyfriend for a few days. We'll both be busy, so after raya lets catch up oke.

Hmm meriahnye bunga api. Dangg!

WARGHH!

Regards, Qila

Meltzzz

2010-09-08T20:27:00.000+08:00

Kittehs for sale
(pic from Mudah.my)

Those are not my kittehs for sale. COMEL OKE. If only any cats can beranak at my house and I can take care of the kittehsssss.

Regards, Qila

Woo Wee Waa

2010-09-08T20:22:00.000+08:00

Salam :)))

WOOO

WEEE

WAAA

Muka gedik nak habiskan masa sebab I was ready early for Ayah.

Regards, Qila

TMTH

2010-09-05T21:34:00.000+08:00

Salam :)

So few pictures about my few dayss...

the frame! suka. simple and very classy. thanks ayah!

Ayah brought back 3 pics that he framed to be displayed on our living room. Heheh, cantik and very simple. Sukaa. :)

the girls

So hari Jumaat pegi berbuka dengan the girls, last minute plan, tapi alhamdulillah on jugak. Its the 3 of us + Meera's bf je. Yang lain ada hal atau tak balik for cuti lagi. Planning nak pegi reunion with 2004 punya SPM batch sebab dah lama tak jumpa kawan2 sekolah. Tapi yang dah kerja dapat cuti 1 hari sahaja kesian okayyy! That's why nak cari kerja after raya sebab takut nanti kacau cuti time raya. I mean this year adalah last skali raya dengan happy and tak fikir nak amik cuti sebab next year pastinya semua dah kerja and time is something that not everyone of us has anymore. Tapi takpelah, we'll make up the time, kena jugak raya sama2!

putu piring, trg style

Beli putu ni haritu. Teringat kat Gee. Sem lepas makan putu ni banyak kot. Siap tapau kasi kawan2 lagi sebab banyak sgt. Its something that we both share sebab ni adalah antara rasuah2 yang dibagi oleh Gee kalau saya merajuk. Kadang2 beli suprise. Kadang2 makan sama2 share dalam kereta time otw pegi A. Star. Kadang2 bila dia rasa nak pamper saye lebih sikit, dia sengaja pegi beli. Pernah kan awak, bawak saya keluar semata-mata nak beli putu ni? Ni ubat gaduh, ubat rajuk, dan ubat happy. And I'm glad I share this with you. :) Btw, it tastes much nicer when its with u.

luka yang berinfeksi

Hari ni bangun pagi2 pegi clinic sebab my finger was so swollen, lagi plak sakit semacam je. So ibu and ayah swuh pegi jumpa doktor. Tak boleh drive sebab sakit jari so ask my sister to drive me to clinic. Tengok2 doctor cakap infection. Luka ni masa potong ayam actually, I was in a hurry so tak perasan jari kena pisau. Then on Saturday dah start swollen and sakit. So the doc give a tetanus injection, for kancing gigi. Takut ada karat dekat pisau tu, nnt infect my body pulak. Sakit kot kena inject GRRRR. Dapat antibiotics and stuff, pulang and rehat. Sekrang jari masih swollen, sakit and gemok gila. :((

Wish me a fast rcovery, dahla malas study for the interview. SIGH.

Regards, Qila

Awakkkk~

2010-09-04T01:19:00.000+08:00

Salam :|

Lalalalla..

Saya rindu boipren sayaa. *sigh*
Harus mencari kerjaan lain untuk distract diri ini.
Apa kata study untuk sesuatu hal pada tarikh 7hb?
Malas nya nak study.. :(

Yang penting mohon doanya supaya semua berjalan lancar..

Huwaaaaa RINDUUUUUUUUU :((((

Regards, Qila

Dah tak mengidam dah!

2010-09-01T20:21:00.003+08:00

Salam :)

Hehehe. Mengidam apa agak2 korang? Heee. Saya mengidam TOMYAM AYAM sebenarnyaaa! Untuk sesiapa yang mengenali saya sepanjang 4 tahun sesi bersekolah di Perlis, mesti tau saya hantu tomyam ayam. Dan bagi saya penanda aras sesuatu kedai tu sedap ke, tak sedap ke adalah tomyam ayam dia. So 4 tahun kat sana memang heaven tomyam laa, sebab kedai makan semua plus minus mesti ada tukang masak Thailand. So tomyam sana memang superbb perghh berasap gilaa. And yang palingggg saya suka order jugak adalah Nasi Goreng Tomyam. Perghsss. Sedaps siots.

So hari ni sebab dah terbayang2 bau, tekstur dan kepedasan tomyam saya telah decide nak masak ayam goreng tomyam. Cubajaya gila sebab tak penah buat oke. Kat Trg ni tak pernah lagi jumpa nasi goreng tomyam atau ayam goreng tomyam ni. Kalau order sure dia bagi nasi goreng + tomyam. Pastu nak suruh bayar harga 2 meal tu. Huaaa nangis. Boleh sampai rm8 bai. Gila apa. Huuu.

So ni resipi nak buat ayam goreng tomyam. Serius sedap. Spesel untuk orang yang tak berapa suka kuah atau sup2, tapi sukaaaa tomyam :D bukan macam Cik Has ye, dia memang hantu sup. Hee :D

Ayam Goreng Tomyam

Bahan2
500gram-600gram ayam
3-4 sudu pes tomyam apa2 brand
6-7 cili padi, diketuk
1 batang serai, hiris
1 1/2 bawang merah, hiris
2 bawang putih, hiris
1 inci halia, hiris
1 sudu gula
1 batang carrot, potong panjang2
2 tomato saiz kecik, potong 6
Daun limau purut 4-6 helai
Air secukupnya
Minyak masak untuk tumis
Garam kalau perlu (saya tak masukkan sebab dah cukup masin pes tomyam tu)

Cara2 :
1.Tumis bahan yang dihiris dalam minyak sampai naik bau. Lepastu masukkan pes. Masak sampai pes tu dah pecah minyak. Masuk cili padi.
2.Masukkan ayam, tambah air sikiiiit je supaya ayam tu boleh masak slow2. Tutup periuk sementara tu. Campur kan carrot atau veggie lain macam bunga kobis/ baby jagung etc. Tambah gula.
3.Masak sampai air ayam tu dah kering and ayam masak. Rasa sikit oke tak. Kalau tawar tambah garam.
4.Hiris daun limau purut and tabur. Masukkan tomato.
5.Kacau sampai semua sebati then tutup api.
6.Serve dengan nasi panas. Nyamm!

sedapp :D

Tadi buat ayah cakap pedas, tapi anak ayah yang sorang ni memang fav dia pedas he he he. Tu x blend lagi cili2 nya. Kalau blend konfirm semua telinga berasap. Kalau dah takde idea boleh la try resipi ni. Sekarang ni dah last2 ramadhan ibu pun dah takde idea, so Qilah to the rescue. Macam2 resipi try wakaakaka.

Oke dah tak ngidam dah. Senyum lebar oke~! :DD

p/s : Takziah kat fam Gee atas pemergian Toksu nya. Al-Fatihah.

Regards, Qila

Kitteh!!

2010-08-30T20:10:00.000+08:00

Salam :))

isn't him adorableeeee?? Rasa nak kerenyet :DD
(pic from Google)

When I get married, boleh tak nak mintak ni sebagai hantaran? Pretty pleaseeee? :DD

Sharing is Caring #1

2010-08-27T20:06:00.002+08:00

Salam :)

Hari ni kita share resipi yang simple tapi sedap ni oke? :)

Aiskrim Goreng

Bahan-bahan:

* 10 keping roti putih

* 5 scope aiskrim (apa2 perisa)

* Plastik wrap ( untuk balut roti)

* Minyak

Cara-cara:

1. Lembabkan roti dengan air

2. Skopkan aiskrim ke atas roti.

3. Tutupkan aiskrim dgn sekeping roti lagi.

4. Tekan acuan telur yang bulat tu supaya roti terputus (Pastikan roti bercantum supaya aiskrim tidak meleleh keluar). *some tips, tekan-tekan sikit hujung roti tu pakai air so dia melekat xtra kuat lepas kapitkan aiskrim tu! :) pastu pakai tupperware bulat pun boleh, tekan kuat2 atas roti then potong sekeliling tupperware pakai pisau, baru kapitkan dia

5. Balut dengan plastik pembalut dan simpan dalam frezeer selama 3jam atau semalaman

6. Keluarkan dari tempat pembeku dan goreng dalam minyak yang panas hingga kuning keemasan. Jangan lama, paling kurang 1-2min sahaja tp pastikan minyak sudah betol2 panas. *tips nak tau minyak panas, tunggu sampai kuar asap. HAHAHA

Source :)

selepas diwrapping dengan cling wrap

So dah cuba resipi ni. Menjadi! Tak sempat amik gambar after goreng sebab terus kena ngap dengan ibu and ayah heheeh. Goreng tu tak sampai 1 min pun sebab minyak panas.. Suka sangat sebab boleh buat. Hehehe. Abes laa lepas ni roti semua berlubang kat tengah hahhaah.

Selamat mencuba ye! :)

Regards, Qila

Boyfriend, you are one year older!!

2010-08-22T00:01:00.007+08:00

Salam :)

First and foremost.. Happy birthday sayang!! Its ur 27th! Cliche sangat cakap dah tua kan? So Ill skip it okay? Hehehe. Semoga menjadi lebih matang dan tahun ni dikurniakan rezeki yang melimpah ruah (so boleh share hahhaha) oleh Allah SWT.. Saya sentiasa doakan awak berjaya dalam hidup dan sama2 menjadi anak yang boleh dibanggakan keluarga. Oke? Sayang awak banyak2!!!

Kedua, saya ingin memohon maaf sebab tak boleh nak celebrate birthday ni sama2 dengan awak disebabkan kekangan jarak dan waktu. Trust me, I want nothing more to wish you happy birthday face to face today. Tapi saya percaya akan ada lagi momen2 bahagia yang kita boleh share sama2, so kita tunggu waktu tu oke? Tunggu kehadiran abang Poslaju dan kalau awak terlepas abang tu, terpaksa awak bekerja keras sikit untuk amik token kasih sayang dan tanda ingatan dari saya dan keluarga di depot Poslaju. Heee.

Apa2 pun, saya mendoakan awak dan keluarga kesejahteraan dan kegembiraan sepanjang masa :) Juga sekali lagi mendoakan rezeki yang melimpah ruah untuk kita sama2. One year older, one year wiser.

We dont have much, but we know we got people who loves us, and we got each other. :)

Selamat Ulang Tahun, Sayang.

p/s : Calling free jangan la buat2 lupa pulak ye.. HEEEE :))

Regards, Qila

Choc Cake!

2010-08-20T13:31:00.001+08:00

Salam :)

Yes, mau buat choc cake today. Yeaaaaayyy!!!

Regards, Qila

Quotes

2010-08-18T13:55:00.000+08:00

Salam :)

'Someday someone might come into your life and love you the way you've always wanted. If your someday was yesterday, learn. If someday is your tomorrow, hope. If someday is your today, cherish..'

My someday was 9 plus months ago, today, and hopefully, eons more..

Regards, Qila

Lullaby

2010-08-17T23:59:00.001+08:00

Salam :)

So I guess mesti semua orang pernah tengok Twilight at least once kan? Me? I've watched it more than 5 times. Haahah. At that mo, Edward Cullen adalah imaginary boyfriend yang sangat popular. I mean, he is PERFECT. Pempuan mana tak nak, right? Well my favourite part of Twilight is when Edward is playing Bella's Lullaby. I mean, its the most meaningful part of the movie. Meltingz okay. Apa lagi nak, your perfect boyfriend compose you a song, a lullaby lagi. Haih..

Actually memori Bella's Lullaby ni di trigger lepas dengar time trun bawah tengok cite Melayu ni. Sengal, spoil tau lagu. Haih. Tak kena dengan mood. Shheessshh.

There can never be any Edward Cullen in real life. No one is perfect. But what I got now, is next to perfection. You can design perfection, tailoring it to your own meaning. So be grateful, be thankful and enjoy the moment.

Sex and The City 2 dah habis download. Kacang Dhal beli kat Gurun ni pun dah ada depan mata. Nak tengok ke, nak tido? Gee is not feeling well, he is resting so will only see him at Sahur nanti. Ngantuk jugak ni.. Haihhh

Regards, Qila

Alhamdulillah!

2010-08-17T20:11:00.000+08:00

Salam :)

Burp!! Alhamdulillah. Kenyangg.. Alhamdulillah untuk rezeki hari ni. Masak tempoyak ikan merah, ayam masak kicap, salad, dengan ikan pekasam. Sedappppp! Ibu and ayah tambah nasi, tapi saya? Takkkk. Kawal nafsu supaya tak tambah. Tambah lauk jek! Hehe.

Mungkin menu berbuka kitorang agak simple. No kueh2. Sebab sebenarnya kitorang lepas makan nasi tu dah kenyang. Baru sekali ayah beli murtabak and popia. Tu pun seksa nak habiskan. Oleh itu, saya sendiri request kat ayah supaya tak payah beli kueh2 atau lauk tambahan. Kadang2 bukan sedap pun. Tapi kena lah habiskan, sayang.. So sebagai dessert saya biasa buat pudding atau dadih dengan kuah cocktail. Senang sangat. Sebab buat pakai dadih yang instant tu, cuma tambah agar2 supaya dia kentalllz sket. Sedap! Ni pun untuk ayah sebab ayah suka benda2 sejuk, manis ni.. Lgpun time2 puasa mulut ayah selalu jadi ulser, kurang air.. So lega la sket makan dadih tu. Yg penting, kurangkan gula dalam dadih, and buat bnda ni tak payah guna telur!! Sgt sihat, I think. Hehehee.

Tadi teringin nak buat butter cookies. Dah nak prepare dah bahan2 semua. Tapi pening pikir cake flour. Google punya Google, kalau nak substitute cake flour dengan flour biasa ada sukatan lain pulak. Pening kot. trus hilang mood. Dah semangat nak wat Choc chip butter cookies. Spoil. Nanti lah pegi beli cake flour plak. Huaaaa.

Duk di rumah adalah sangat contented. Nak duk sampai bila2 bleh? Hahahhaha.

Regards, Qila

Grr

2010-08-13T12:33:00.000+08:00

Salam :)

3rd day Ramadhan. And also my sister's birthdayyy! Happy birthday, I love you!! Presents nanti dulu yek, haven't got a chance to shop and sekarang as I am still unemployed, cash is a lil slow. Weehhehe.

Perut sakit. Argh. Tapi buat tak layan and buat chores macam biasa. Grr. Skype is being an ass, sebab suka suki off video call. Benci terkejut dengan bunyi dropped call tu. Haih.

Im glad for staying at home, ibu was not feeling well, flu and cold. So it is me who take the role of chef-ing for berbuka and others. Ada hikmah for everything. I wouldnt forgive myself if I cant help them when I should, could have. And Im glad even ayah approved of me driving around. Perhaps a further destination by myself later? Perhaps Ku-an-tan? Gyeahh!! Hahah, in your dreamsss.

I miss the time I spent up north a week ago. Dem missing someone is so hardd. Tapi when you meet them after so long, it is SO worth it. So sekarang bertahan and mengisi masa lapang dengan perkara2 berfaedah to avoid from moping around rindu tertonggeng2 and stuff. Wahahhaha. Take care for me, like I take care for you. Huaaaaa.

p/s : Selamat berpuasa semua, jom kita mencari keberkatan bulan mulia ni.

Regards, Qila

:)

2010-08-10T17:43:00.000+08:00

Salam :)

current wallpaper.

Regards, Qila

Convooo!

2010-08-09T00:26:00.001+08:00

us with the family

my fav pic.. thanks acik :)

Salam :)

Konvo. Settled. Now, real life. Baru sampai rumah, letih. And banyak pics dgn ibu lagi. Esok la update. Im happy, Alhamdulillah..

Regards, Qila

Super Something, Me

2010-08-02T23:53:00.000+08:00

Salam :)

Super Something - Yuna

You see
I was nothing more
than a girl who wished
for something different
watchin her dreams
from a distance

You see
when you came in
it's a different game
You believe in me so much
You turn me from nothing to a girl
who's super-something

(chorus)
You'll see
I'm better
I'm faster
Stronger
I'm happier
when you by my side
(ku lalui semua dengan senyuman di wajahku)
You'll see
I'm better
I'm faster
Stronger
I'm happier
when you by my side
(ku tempuhi semua kerana engkau di sisi ku)

The truth is
I was never more than this
Something kept me from reaching out
for something
but my heart is wanting
what it's looking for
then you came
you turn me upside down
I'm no longer afraid
of chasing
possibilities
I'll be the last one standing

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Am loving this song. Dedicated to the people who matter the most to me. :)

Tiger RAWR

2010-08-01T19:15:00.000+08:00

Salam :))

Patutnya hari ni Friendship Day la kononnye. Tapi for me, friendship is something that needs to be celebrated each and every day. Orang yang kita sayang, mestilah kena jaga, sebab there's never two of the same person. So am not wishing it to anyone, sebab kalau nak wish, kena wish every single day! So tak kuasa mak. But I reallyyyyy2 appreciate all of my friends okay. Heheheh.

Anyway spent today with Meeeeraa just walking around and picking up my something2 yang dah tak rahasia lagi. Tak boleh simpan, nanti dia overlap howwwww? Spoil my surprise kan hahhahaha. And then just walking around and comparing prices of cornflakes, butter and honey hmmm macam bosan but its notttt. Hee.

Btw bought another selendang(hahhahaah) and 6 brooches. Gileeeee. 1 tu bentuk ladybirrrrd. Nomey..

Then petang pegi jogging and elok2 kitorang sampai rumah hujan. So gyeah. A nice dayyyy.

p/s : 3 days more. Yayy

Regards, Qila

Blue

2010-07-31T22:23:00.001+08:00

Salam :)

I am seriously tired. Dulu2 pun selalu je travel macam ni, oke je. Ni letih gilaa. Kaki rasa bengkak, mata panas, kepala pening. Haih. Apehall la pulak haaa.

Btw, the family pegi Kota Bharu for a cousin's wedding. Secara tepatnya di Wakaf Bharu. Kelantan bukanlah satu tempat wajib untuk dikunjungi kalau tak ada events, weddings etc2, walaupun sedara mara boleh tahan banyakkkkk kat sana. Tapi it is never too late to know where your family is kan? :)

Arrived at around 1230 kat rumah pengantin (majlis menyambut menantu sebenarnya ni, nikah 12/6 kat KL), stay sampai kul 2pm++ then ibu ajak ayah pusing2 KB. I was thinking of buying some selendang sebab well, jalan dengan ibu and ayah kan, he he he, free stuffs lahh. It was Saturday, KB was pretttyyy busyy tapi sebab ayah tau intention saya nak pergi pasar tu sebab nak cari selendang, so dia usahakan jugak. Alhamdulillah dapat parking betul2 depan pasar, tapi tak pergi pasar pun. P kat kedai selendang seberang jalan. Dapat laaa 3 helai, Alhamdulillah. Thanks ibu, ayah! Lg best, dapat keep the change HAHAHAHAHA. Dan ini smua berlaku kurang dari 20min. Pantas kan kitorang shopping? :))

So around 3pm++ , gerak balik KT with pit stops at Sate Lanang dekat Permaisuri. Sedappp, n nasib baik tak ramai orang so boleh makan rilex2. Kalau tak sumbat sumbat sumbat sebab kesian ramai orang tunggu nak dapat table.

Arrived at home around 7, after dropping Maktuk and Makteh at their house and hantar sate kat kawan ayah. Try2 selendang baru, freshen up, makan sate lagi, tgk Jangan Lupa Lirik, then bloggingz.

And Im beat. Trun bawah isi air dalam botol dulu. Jom2.

Regards, Qila

I shall not..

2010-07-30T19:28:00.001+08:00

Salam :)

Menyambung ayat di atas..

I shall not...

Buy anything unnecessary online. Offline boleh, sebab does not pakai my moneyhhhh.
Surf at blogshops yang jual bee-yuuu-ti-fulll selendangs :(
Spend the duit I put aside for something-something.

Yang lain akan ditambah. Macam banyak ni.. Haahhaa

Regards,Qila

short

2010-07-29T16:50:00.000+08:00

Salam :)

Keseronokan sekarang adalah menonton tutorial pemakaian selendang di youtube. Wehehheeheh.

And today, no jogging, we're cleaning the houseeee.

And yeah i miss Gee.

Regards, Qila

=.=

2010-07-28T20:34:00.000+08:00

senget sebelah kanan..

centre kejap..

everything in between

Salam.

Gambar2 diambil menerusi webcam sebelum ber-GCB bersama the girls. Pics2 semasa ber-GCB xde sebab malas dan kondisi gelap. *sigh*

Btw, GCB BESTTTTT!!!!!

And sekarang nak install anti-virus dalam netbook ibu. So cute the netbook. Nak boleh? Pretty pleeassseeee?

Have a nice nice nice day ppl :))

Regards, Qila

1st

2010-07-26T21:24:00.001+08:00

Salam. :)

I was thinking of going out to UMT's Pesta Konvo today. Tapi bila mengingatkan minyak ada lagi 2 bar (ibu cakap 2 bar tu boleh sampai Dungun, tapi dengan cara pemanduan saya, maybe sampai Chendering je kot. Brake, Gas, Brake, Gas, Emergency Brake.. Repeat) so takpelah, cancel.

So ajak la the girls to eat GCB at McD for maybe lunch tomorrow tapi the girls ada yang puasa, so kalau nak kua pun after Maghrib. So am not driving tomorrow, malam2 tak boleh drive lagiii.. *sigh*

And tomorrow is the first 1000km/ a month service for Cucoq. Awww... dah sebuulan.. and dah 1000km dia jalan.. *teary-eyed*

Well maybe macam gedik tak hengat tapi dis is a really big deal for me. Just like formatting my laptop. I think the slowness of my laptop really is the identity of it. Haha. Pls dont say judge a laptop by its owner, I am not slow okay. Bila nak format I have to think of all these softwares that I need to install back. iTunes, printers, PC Suite for Nokia, Skype, GTalk etc etc. So benda renyah ni la yang I hateeee so much. Grr. Ni lah padahnya malas update anti-virus. :(

So Ill be getting the laptop tomorrow, tgk lah apa yang berubah. Grrrrrr.

p/s: Macam mana nak stop makan nasi? I loveee nasi so much. Haih.
p/s2: Buat pengat durian tadi. SEDAPPP.
p/s3: Digicam dah berjaya diformat. YEAYYYY

Regards, Qila

Growing up. :(

2010-07-22T19:21:00.001+08:00

Salam :)

Oh why oh why my wireless wont give me its signal right now?? Mungkin kah sebab saya suka2 hati off on off on dia tadi? Wireless, you should not be that demanding okayyy. Pffts. So sekarang I am stuck using good ol broadband.. Nasib ada bb.

So right now, its raining here in KT, lebatttt okay. Its slightly cooler than before. Yayy. Tak pegi jogging, ibu was tired so stayed at home, masak nasi and then goreng2 for dinner.

Soooo perhaps Ill go through major changes in life, I still cant accept it, and wish that something, anything would happen to prevent me from going anywhere I am going. I actually dreamt of being a lazy ass sampai perhaps after raya so to decide on something that is going to happen in the near, near, near future is kinda.. shocking. I planned with ibu to cook good healthy food during Puasa. To remind each other of not eating to much, see I planned that I will be a bibik for at least a couple more months. So to have that dreams crushed, Im somewhat is removed from the safety zone, and will be thrown to the place of 'Making New Changes'. Doesnt seem nice does it. Well it have some perks, mainly GEE. Tapi.. Although its a real good thing.. Tapi.. You know when everything is right, when people ask u what's holding you back and you got no answer for that, TAPI, you had this feeling that sounds like.. 'Is this the thing that I am going to do? Now?' Plus home is so far away.. I thought Id get over it, well its been 4 years already but I am still daddys little girl and hatessss to be away from home. Plus, Iv get used to every luxury I have here. Argh.

But there's still time to take back everything. Ill just have to, Ive thought about it again, and Im sorry I couldnt take it. And ill be happy. Right?

Dem.

Regards, Qila

2010-07-21T16:48:00.002+08:00

Just come back when you think its time.

Regards, Qila

tell me.

2010-07-21T13:24:00.001+08:00

Salam. :|

I cant do this on my own.
I have feelings, too.
Put urself in my shoes.
Then you'll know.
That some words can hurt me.
Some actions can make me cry.
I thought you knew that, I thought you'd understand.

U could be patient once, longg ago.
Why can't you now?
Why can't you be patient with me?
What is different now, the time dulu dan sekarang, atau the person?
What changed?

Tell me, tell me now.
Ill try, I promise you that.
But will you try, too?
For me, for you?

So smile and get ready to face the world, because no one needs to know how you feel. :)

Regards, Qila

Ingatkan aku..

2010-07-19T23:03:00.001+08:00

Salam :)

Ana Raffali - Tolong Ingatkan Aku

Jangan disusun kata-kata penamat
Jangan disebut baris ayat keramat
Biar lenyap diserap sunyi
Biar senyap yang tak menyepi

Tolong ingatkan aku
Kisah kau tersedar
Dengan saku penyeluk masa

Mari patahkan papan markah lama
Mari padamkan buku tiga lima
Biar luka sembuh sendiri
Biar lupa dimakan hari

Tolong ingatkan aku
Kisah kau tersedar
Dengan saku penyeluk masa
Kau dampingi aku
Setiap detik jantungku berdetak
Setiap nota jiwaku berlagu-lagu

Bila marah merasuk minda
Kecewa menyelubungi jiwa
Aku lupa

Tolong ingatkan aku
Kisah ku tersedar
Dengan kasih memeluk rasa
Ku teringatkanmu
Setiap detik jantungku berdetak
Setiap nota jiwaku berlagu-lagu

Tolong ingatkan aku kisah kita
Tolong ingatkan aku
Kisah ku tersedar
Dengan kasih memeluk rasa

Tolong ingatkan aku
Kisah kita

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Yes I may forget.
You may, too.
But pls promise me that you will be there to remind me

of the time when I gave u the 'ice cream', it was during our Construction class.

of the time when we ignored the lecturers in front and SMS non-stop, although u are just 4-5 rows behind me, kesian Prof Amin-Corrosion :)

of the days where we wake each other for sahur and gtalk till morning

of the times I cried because of my project and u were there, u are always there, to scold or to soothe, tapi u are always there.

of the late night cruising along the highway

of the talks we had, about the past, present and future

of the plans we had for many, many things

of the promises we made to each other.

Pls, do remind me. And I promise I will be ur reminder too.

I love you, but then sometimes, I can be a pain in the arse, and you.. well you can too. HAHA. So, whenever we feel sooo mad at each other, whenever we feel like giving up, remember what we have, remember the good times, remember the lessons. And Ill know we'll be okay.

Reminiscene is nice. Falling in love is nice. So I wont stop. :)

Regards, Qila

The past, approx 5 years ago.

2010-07-17T12:17:00.000+08:00

Salam :)

It was my matriculation sem break, 5 years ago. I didnt remember the exact date, but I remember the time and the emotions perfectly. It was during lunch, ayah just got back from work. I rushed downstairs as I always did, to greet him and to prepare our lunch, shop bought of course hehe. He called me and excitedly gave me this envelope, well it looked very official to me. With UiTM stamped on the left corner of the envelope. I was excited too, perhaps its the offer letter Ive been waiting for, the one that will save me from matriculation, because to be honest, Ive had a HARD time coping there. It was actually an offer letter for Diploma in Civil Engineering. I was sooooo happy, until I finally digested where I am sent. It was in Kampus Samarahan. The feeling was gone in a poof. I love the course, but am I willing to be that far away, will I be okay there? For my parents, the offer was just a back up plan, but for me it was my ticket to be release from matric. The matric was not that bad, its just that I cant coped, I actually got Fs for tests and I cant believe I got that particular letter. I wasnt a straight A student mind you, but I am not failing either. To get F, its just plain depressing. :(

Iv written to UiTM, formally to change my campus, but then they said I have to study there for at least 1 sem, and then they will probably transfer me. I cant take that risk, nothing is certain, so I put UiTM at the back of my mind, packed my bags and left for Gambang.

Sometimes I wonder, what if I go for the offer, leave everything in the peninsular and start over. Will I get transferred after 1 sem? The only reason I applied for UiTM is because I wanted an easy way out, a new start and hopefully nearer to my friends and boyfriend back then. I realized with each passing days, months and years, it was my heart talking, not my head thinking. I was 17 at that time, and luckily, my parents showed me the pro and cons. Well there is no pros actually, only cons. So UiTM no more.

After finishing matrics, and gotten the results, I am glad I stayed for the rest of the year. Not becos I aced my exams. My results were catastrophic. It was reallllllyyy badddd. But I realized, I still have my friends, matrics and those in the UiTM, I broke up with my boyfriend back then which I would leave matrics for(ultimate stupidity), and I have grown so much more. At 17, relationships are often build based on companionship, when both of the parties are not in the same class anymore, whats left is just the memories, and at 17, that wouldnt last long.

So now, 5 years later, after finding the same envelope being buried under 10 layers of books and papers, I could say I did not regret saying NO to UiTM. I am having my convocation in less that 3 weeks, I got family, loved ones, friends all around me. I have my whole life in front of me. I am contented. Perhaps that is not my rezeki to go to the uni, but maybe in the future, who knows. :)

Regards, Qila

Hujan.

2010-07-16T19:49:00.000+08:00

Salam :)

Alhamdulillah, 2-3 hari ni turun jugak hujan. Sejukk.

Baru lepas layan umi and ayyman dtg rumah. Tengah duk melangut atas katil, and then terasa nak buat sardine roll. It was 615pm. Memang agak lambat la bagi saya untuk start wat bnda2 alah ni kalau dah pukul 6 lbh. Tapi nak buat jugak. Potong bawang, cili, bukak tin sardin, sapu butter kat roti, pecah telur and then heat up minyak. Baru nak start golek roti dalam telur dengar suara budak kecik asemekomm asemekomm. Intai punya intai hehe, ayyman :)

Bukak pintu ajak masuk, and then buat air and goreng2. Oke la at least ada something nk hidang. Maybe mmg terasa kot ada orang nak datang.. Heee. So ayyman tak makan pun sardin roll hampeh, dia makan kinder bueno 2 batang and then sebijik ferrero rocher gilerk ah ini budak. Tu pun kalau boleh nak lagi, tapi sebab saya adalah orang yang sayangkan gigi, saya cakap, dah banyak benda manis, dah tak boleh dahhh. Minum air sejuk banyak2. Hee. Saya sgt2 pentingkan penjagaan gigi yaww. Alhamdulillah jgak dikurniakn gigi yang sempurnaaa. :))

Hari ni sangat produktif, sebab start pagi pegi jogging. Then siang ayam. Then masak for lunch. Then kemas bilik. My room used to be filled with posters, u name it Ashlee Simpson's, Good Charlotte's, Linkin Park's(wait its still there duhh), Avril Lavigne and moreee tapi tadi semua dah diturunkan and selamat DIKOYAKKAN. Xcept 1 Emily The Strange punya poster, its big and dear sista brought it back from London, so lipat elok2 and simpan mana2 lahh. So bilik sekarang dah neutral utk di hias kembali.

I dislike mengemas. I mean Im good at it, tapi saya pemalas. But I loveeee to cook. Being in the kitchen. But the tidying up afterwards, no I dontch like. Suruh masak apa je, buat apa je, Im up for it, tapi untuk mengemas, plsssssss. Ill do it, only sebab I have to. Huuu.

So Gee will be seeing his nephew, and will not be able to webcam. Ill be keeping myself company throughout his abscence. Argh. Deal with it okayyy.

Misi hari esok, mencari tudung bling2. yayyyyy. :))))

p/s: Minute Maid's Mixed fruit is aweeesoommeeeee. SEDAP!

Regards, Qila

Gifts and Presents

2010-07-12T19:04:00.000+08:00

Salam :)

FYI kat KT dah laaaammaa tak hujan. Is it true kat PERLIS selalu hujan sekarang? Demm. Kenapa bila dah tak akan kembali ke sana baru nak hujannn? Perhaps sebab manusia2 yang banyak dosa dah blah dari tanah Perlis so hujan turun la.. Kot? Hahah. Kat sini panas macam toott and peluh tu memang tak hingat laaaa :(

So Sabtu lepas telah ke tanah Kuantan selepas beberapa tahun tak ke sana fiuhh and misi menghantar adik serta mencari kasut Konvo telah berjayaaa. Yaaayyy. Cuma sekrang kena lembutkan kasut tu means I have to walk around the house wearing the shoez so masa hari kejadian aka D-Day aka Convocation day kaki saya takkan melecet atau tergelecoh. Have to get used to it babes. Kaki saya sgt lah senstif, especially at the heels because kebanyakan kasut akan membuat ia melecet. So saya sgt jeles kepada mereka yang boleh memakai apa sahaja jenis kasut tanpa melecet huu. I can only wear suede or very2 soft cloth material shoes/flats. Dah pernah ada kejadian where I wore this one shoe pegi lecture, serius dah gigit the shoes EVERYWHERE and I thought it was soft enough tapi guess what? I thought wrong. Pegi lecture okay lagi, balik lecture I was screaming and practically crying menitik2 air mata sebab sakit sangat. Tobat dah tak pakai the shoes walaupun CANTIK GILAA. This actually happens in Jakarta sebab I need to walk around 15 minutes to get to campus so bayangkan la apa yang saya rasa the whole 15 minutes balik tu. Rasanya dalam jugak lah kuku saya benam kat tangan Anis haritu.. Hee. Sorrrry Anis :))) After that incident, saya telah berjanji kepada diri sendiri untuk tidak membiarkan lagi kaki ni sakit melecet. Hence the process of making the leather on my shoes soften. :) Plus ibu cakap kalau sapu lilin it will be better. Nanti la cuba.

Because of my Convo kurung is green with red flowers.. with brown tones and stuffs, kasut yang dibeli adalah berwarna tan. Dan disebabkan syarat di dalam buku konvo menyatakan

KASUT BERTUMIT DAN BERTUTUP

saya dengan happynya membeli sepasang wedges yang sgt comelllz. I actually visualised first how I wanted to look on the D-day, so 2/3 of my looks are completed. Sekarang have to find the scarf pulak. I am thinking of buying a darker shade of tan to match with the kurung and shoes. Yang pasti nak yang ada BLING2 so atas pentas nanti boleh nampak ya aa awww. EXCITED oke. Beg konvo dah ada. Tapi tak kira baru sebab dah pakai. Gerammm sgt. He he he.

Alhamdulillah nasib baikkk ibu and ayah menge-share ke-excited-an ni. He he he. Kalau tak ada nak kena terajang je bila tunjuk nak macam2. Hahhaahah. They are happy Im graduating, I know that. Alhamdulillahhhh :))

Dan untuk the ultimate present that I got sempena my birthday and convo. CCQ + the trust :) Konfirm birthday2 lepas ni PLS JANGAN HARAP nak hadiah lagi. Jangan sebut langsung. Kalau boleh buat2 tak ingat je birthday tu. Tak payah hint2. Okay perhaps I deserve a slice of cake.. Or a birthday dinner. He he he.

p/s: sekarang is addicted to Giant's First Choice Apple and Promegranate Juice. Nyummmyyy. And sangat sedap kalau buat pudding punya kuah. Nyammmm

Regards, Qila

:)

2010-07-10T22:06:00.000+08:00

Salam :)

So the new image. Hm. Perhaps too sudden tapi nothing is too sudden. What concern me is that my before pics are everywhere. I cant control what other people upload nor I want to hide what I have uploaded of the before pics, but I will no longer distribute other pics that shows what I have covered, namely my hair.

Saya bukan baik sangat, and saya juga ada memori dan kenangan tentang perkara2 yang lepas, and paling penting I share those moments with the people I care about, its not fair for them to be restricted just because of me. This is what I feel, so perhaps its not the best of ideas, but, that is me.

So dalam usaha untuk menukar gambar2 seboleh mungkin. Menjadi lebih baik is never too hard. Cuma terletak atas awak je nak atau tak nak. Saya dah lama cakap tak nak, its nice to finally say nak.

The smile on my parents face. The words of dear sister 'SERIUSSS?' hahah. The questions and Alhamdulillahs from the boyfriend. Hehe. You guys made my day. Am doing this for the people I love, am doing all of this for me.

I just want to be better. :)

p/s : meet Cucoq. He's so white he sparkles hehehe

Regards, Qila

Thoughts, thoughts

2010-07-08T22:03:00.000+08:00

Salam :)

The thought of having confidence in someone replying my texts patiently makes me feel warm.

The thought of having both of my parents being in the same home makes me calm.

The thought that both of my sisters are getting on well with life makes me feel at ease.

But most importantly, the thought of my loved ones are happy, makes me happy.

Alhamdulillah.

p/s : am cherishing the NOW, because LATER, who knows what will happen.

Regards, Qila