=.=

senget sebelah kanan..

centre kejap..

everything in between

Salam.

Gambar2 diambil menerusi webcam sebelum ber-GCB bersama the girls. Pics2 semasa ber-GCB xde sebab malas dan kondisi gelap. *sigh*

Btw, GCB BESTTTTT!!!!! 

And sekarang nak install anti-virus dalam netbook ibu. So cute the netbook. Nak boleh? Pretty pleeassseeee?

Have a nice nice nice day ppl :))

Regards, Qila

1st

Salam. :)

I was thinking of going out to UMT's Pesta Konvo today. Tapi bila mengingatkan minyak ada lagi 2 bar (ibu cakap 2 bar tu boleh sampai Dungun, tapi dengan cara pemanduan saya, maybe sampai Chendering je kot. Brake, Gas, Brake, Gas, Emergency Brake.. Repeat) so takpelah, cancel.

So ajak la the girls to eat GCB at McD for maybe lunch tomorrow tapi the girls ada yang puasa, so kalau nak kua pun after Maghrib. So am not driving tomorrow, malam2 tak boleh drive lagiii.. *sigh*

And tomorrow is the first 1000km/ a month service for Cucoq. Awww... dah sebuulan.. and dah 1000km dia jalan.. *teary-eyed*

Well maybe macam gedik tak hengat tapi dis is a really big deal for me. Just like formatting my laptop. I think the  slowness of my laptop really is the identity of it. Haha. Pls dont say judge a laptop by its owner, I am not slow okay. Bila nak format I have to think of all these softwares that I need to install back. iTunes, printers, PC Suite for Nokia, Skype, GTalk etc etc. So benda renyah ni la yang I hateeee so much. Grr. Ni lah padahnya malas update anti-virus. :(

So Ill be getting the laptop tomorrow, tgk lah apa yang berubah. Grrrrrr.

p/s: Macam mana nak stop makan nasi? I loveee nasi so much. Haih.
p/s2: Buat pengat durian tadi. SEDAPPP.
p/s3: Digicam dah berjaya diformat. YEAYYYY

Regards, Qila

Growing up. :(

Salam :)

Oh why oh why my wireless wont give me its signal right now?? Mungkin kah sebab saya suka2 hati off on off on dia tadi? Wireless, you should not be that demanding okayyy. Pffts. So sekarang I am stuck using good ol broadband.. Nasib ada bb.

So right now, its raining here in KT, lebatttt okay. Its slightly cooler than before. Yayy. Tak pegi jogging, ibu was tired so stayed at home, masak nasi and then goreng2 for dinner.

Soooo perhaps Ill go through major changes in life, I still cant accept it, and wish that something, anything would happen to prevent me from going anywhere I am going. I actually dreamt of being a lazy ass sampai perhaps after raya so to decide on something that is going to happen in the near, near, near future is kinda.. shocking. I planned with ibu to cook good healthy food during Puasa. To remind each other of not eating to much, see I planned that I will be a bibik for at least a couple more months. So to have that dreams crushed, Im somewhat is removed from the safety zone, and will be thrown to the place of 'Making New Changes'. Doesnt seem nice does it. Well it have some perks, mainly GEE. Tapi.. Although its a real good thing.. Tapi.. You know when everything is right, when people ask u what's holding you back and you got no answer for that, TAPI, you had this feeling that sounds like.. 'Is this the thing that I am going to do? Now?' Plus home is so far away.. I thought Id get over it, well its been 4 years already but I am still daddys little girl and hatessss to be away from home. Plus, Iv get used to every luxury I have here. Argh.

But there's still time to take back everything. Ill just have to, Ive thought about it again, and Im sorry I couldnt take it. And ill be happy. Right?

Dem.

Regards, Qila

Just come back when you think its time.

Regards, Qila

tell me.

Salam. :|

I cant do this on my own.
I have feelings, too.
Put urself in my shoes.
Then you'll know.
That some words can hurt me.
Some actions can make me cry.
I thought you knew that, I thought you'd understand.

U could be patient once, longg ago.
Why can't you now?
Why can't you be patient with me?
What is different now, the time dulu dan sekarang, atau the person?
What changed?

Tell me, tell me now.
Ill try, I promise you that.
But will you try, too?
For me, for you?

So smile and get ready to face the world, because no one needs to know how you feel. :)

Regards, Qila

Ingatkan aku..

 Salam :)


Ana Raffali - Tolong Ingatkan Aku

Jangan disusun kata-kata penamat
Jangan disebut baris ayat keramat
Biar lenyap diserap sunyi
Biar senyap yang tak menyepi

Tolong ingatkan aku
Kisah kau tersedar
Dengan saku penyeluk masa

Mari patahkan papan markah lama
Mari padamkan buku tiga lima
Biar luka sembuh sendiri
Biar lupa dimakan hari

Tolong ingatkan aku
Kisah kau tersedar
Dengan saku penyeluk masa
Kau dampingi aku
Setiap detik jantungku berdetak
Setiap nota jiwaku berlagu-lagu

Bila marah merasuk minda
Kecewa menyelubungi jiwa
Aku lupa

Tolong ingatkan aku
Kisah ku tersedar
Dengan kasih memeluk rasa
Ku teringatkanmu
Setiap detik jantungku berdetak
Setiap nota jiwaku berlagu-lagu

Tolong ingatkan aku kisah kita
Tolong ingatkan aku
Kisah ku tersedar
Dengan kasih memeluk rasa

Tolong ingatkan aku
Kisah kita

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Yes I may forget.
You may, too.
But pls promise me that you will be there to remind me

of the time when I gave u the 'ice cream', it was during our Construction class.

of the time when we ignored the lecturers in front and SMS non-stop, although u are just 4-5 rows behind me, kesian Prof Amin-Corrosion :)

of the days where we wake each other for sahur and gtalk till morning

of the times I cried because of my project and u were there, u are always there, to scold or to soothe, tapi u are always there.

of the late night cruising along the highway

of the talks we had, about the past, present and future

of the plans we had for many, many things

of the promises we made to each other.

Pls, do remind me. And I promise I will be ur reminder too.

I love you, but then sometimes, I can be a pain in the arse, and you.. well you can too. HAHA. So, whenever we feel sooo mad at each other, whenever we feel like giving up, remember what we have, remember the good times, remember the lessons. And Ill know we'll be okay.

Reminiscene is nice. Falling in love is nice. So I wont stop. :)

Regards, Qila

The past, approx 5 years ago.

Salam :)

It was my matriculation sem break, 5 years ago. I didnt remember the exact date, but I remember the time and the emotions perfectly. It was during lunch, ayah just got back from work. I rushed downstairs as I always did, to greet him and to prepare our lunch, shop bought of course hehe. He called me and excitedly gave me this envelope, well it looked very official to me. With UiTM stamped on the left corner of the envelope. I was excited too, perhaps its the offer letter Ive been waiting for, the one that will save me from matriculation, because to be honest, Ive had a HARD time coping there. It was actually an offer letter for Diploma in Civil Engineering. I was sooooo happy, until I finally digested where I am sent. It was in Kampus Samarahan. The feeling was gone in a poof. I love the course, but am I willing to be that far away, will I be okay there? For my parents, the offer was just a back up plan, but for me it was my ticket to be release from matric. The matric was not that bad, its just that I cant coped, I actually got Fs for tests and I cant believe I got that particular letter. I wasnt a straight A student mind you, but I am not failing either. To get F, its just plain depressing. :(

Iv written to UiTM, formally to change my campus, but then they said I have to study there for at least 1 sem, and then they will probably transfer me. I cant take that risk, nothing is certain, so I put UiTM at the back of my mind, packed my bags and left for Gambang.

Sometimes I wonder, what if I go for the offer, leave everything in the peninsular and start over. Will I get transferred after 1 sem? The only reason I applied for UiTM is because I wanted an easy way out, a new start and hopefully nearer to my friends and boyfriend back then. I realized with each passing days, months and years, it was my heart talking, not my head thinking. I was 17 at that time, and luckily, my parents showed me the pro and cons. Well there is no pros actually, only cons. So UiTM no more.

After finishing matrics, and gotten the results, I am glad I stayed for the rest of the year. Not becos I aced my exams. My results were catastrophic. It was reallllllyyy badddd. But I realized, I still have my friends, matrics and those in the UiTM, I broke up with my boyfriend back then which I would leave matrics for(ultimate stupidity), and I have grown so much more. At 17, relationships are often build based on companionship, when both of the parties are not in the same class anymore, whats left is just the memories, and at 17, that wouldnt last long.

So now, 5 years later, after finding the same envelope being buried under 10 layers of books and papers, I could say I did not regret saying NO to UiTM. I am having my convocation in less that 3 weeks, I got family, loved ones, friends all around me. I have my whole life in front of me. I am contented. Perhaps that is not my rezeki to go to the uni, but maybe in the future, who knows. :)

Regards, Qila