Strawsberrys

Salam :)

Hari ni adalah hari free bagi saya tapi hari kelas untuk Gee. He is supposed to have English Uni class and also Welding Metallurgy. Tapi kelas Welding cancelled due to many of my classmates that went for the walk in interview at UTP so dia pegi kelas English sahaja. The class ended around 130 and we went to have our lunch at, at last, Anjung Keli yayyy. Walaupun lauk favourite saya takde, keli goreng sambal and bergedil tak ada, tapi takpe sebab sambal hijau dia dah cukup untuk saya hee. Thanks love :)

So after makan we dunno where to go, tapi sebab bf saya SWEET :D he knows I want to spend time with him kitorang pun pergi la bundle sekejappp sebab he got works to do, bills to pay. Lgpun I myself akan sgt risau kalau dia drive sorang2, especially when its dark. Dah la sekarang musim hujan petang2.

So got myself 2 new toys.. Tak bg nama lagi hehe.

The yellow one aree so cuteeeee. Macam suruh saya amik dia je heheh. Yang hijau Gee pilih. Kawan tertel saya kat atas katil :)

Then around 3++pm gerak nak balik and before thatttt, *sebab nak spend time a little bit moreee heee* kitorang pun pegi Petronas to beli dadih sedapppp. Kat sini lah kejutan berlaku. Masa bayar mintak dengan akak kaunter, sudu utk makan.. Then dia boleh cakap 'Sudu tak ada dik, tu yang akak letak straw tu' sambil senyum bangga sebab dapat solution utk ganti sudu dengan straw. Macam Eureka! Rasa gerammmm je tapi nak kata apa. Haihhhh. So hari ni kitorang makan dadih pakai straw. Gee cakap sedap jugak. Grrrrr.

Us makan dadih pakai straw. "SEDAP"

Then after dadih session baru lah betul2 pulang. Haih. Will see him again tomorrow i'Allah.. Sekarang, nak prepare untuk presentation esok. Chaiyooooooo.

Regards,Qila

Just as long as I got you right here by me

One of my favourite pics. Sebab muka Gee yang senonoh. Hahahaahaha. Tapi resolution yg x best. Nebermind :)

Hujan2 jadi jiwangz karats plak. Auwwwww.

Regards, Qila

Of thoughts

Salam. :|

Baru balik dari lab. Hmm tersalah ingat hari. Dah konfius jam kelas walau nak habis sem dah. It was funny. At first. Td tak sempat nk lunch. Lapar, tapi.. Takpelah, diet untuk hari ni. There's always a bright side of everything. Always. Kalau lapar sangat pun turun la pergi cafe, bukan jauh sgt kan. Teringin makan kat Anjung Keli lagi, tapi hari ni tak de rezeki. Lepas2 ni maybe. Umur panjang sure boleh makan lagi kan? Lagipun Alhamdulillah makan breakfast tadi. Alas perut.

Hmm. apa nak buat kalau kita rasa yang kita fikir adalah what's best for someone, and kalau kita paksa, marah, push atau something2, kita tau untuk kebaikan and kita sanggup kena marah, kena cop sebagai orang jahat, sebab kita rasa that person akan sedar sooner or later apa yang kita buat bukan utk susahkan dia, bukan untuk dajalkan dia, bukan untuk cari gaduh tapi untuk kebaikan dia. Macam mana nak cakap? Kadang2 rasa buat macam ni tak efektif, sebab ni bukan drama, bukan ada orang akan dengar apa yang kita cakap dalam hati dan tolong sampaikan kat orang tersebut and lepas tu orang tu sedar yang niat kita baik and it ends happily ever after. Tak. Ni bukan drama. So kalau ni bukan drama, u just have to face the consequences la, apa yang kau buat akan jadi punca gaduh dan salah faham. Dan selagi kau tak cakap niat murni kau yang mula2 kau nak sorok, tapi terpaksa bagitahu last2, that other person takkan faham, and benda takkan selesai. Pesanan penaja sekali lagi, Qila, ni bukan drama.

So what's a person like me to do when benda ni jadi? Jom tgk checklist:

1. Dah cuba clearkan keadaan? Check.
2. Dah cuba bagi alasan kenapa buat macam tu? Check.
3. Dah pulihkan keadaan? Not yet.

Maybe I shouldn't think too much about others. Tapi tak boleh. That's not me. Tak guna kalau nak buat jahat, nak jadi orang lain kalau hati tak senang, conscience sentiasa dalam kepala. What's the use? Jadi diri sendiri sudah. Kan?

Regards, Qila

Accidents.

Salam :|

A lil bit tired. Letih sebab tak cukup tidur semalam. So I had my first experience of an accident. I mean a major one. The one I was involved in last year was mild, compared to this I think. I was lucky that time. Lebam and bruises je. Last night, a friend's car flipped over, and we were right behind them. Lepas selekoh dah tak nampak diorang, tengok belah kanan nampak the car terbalik with the wheels still pusing2 like crazy. I was with Gee, and I panicked. Terus pandang bawah. He u-turned, and bila dia dah berhenti kat kereta tu, saya cabut seatbelt, put my head between my knees and lost control. Meraung, menangis, shaking. Dah tak boleh control. I totally panicked. Gee was worried, tapi he need to check on our friends first. Alhamdulillah, semua oke. Although ada mangsa keadaan at that time, the car hit a bike with 2 ppl. Tapi yang penting, semua selamat.

And there was this one thing that worries us. But I know we will be okay. We will.

Still tired, and cant think of anything.

Regards, Qila

You, you you

Salam :)

Kenyang. Atau dalam bahasa Trg nya se'eh. Hahah. Makan nasi ayam kat RFC(semata2 sebab aircond, believe me bila saya cakap Perlis panas) around 530pm, then had dinner at 930pm.. Tak berapa sempat nak hadam, tapi habis jugak hahahahaa. Sedap oke! :) So sekarang rasa nak bergulung macam ular sawa tapi cuba utk menggigihkan diri supaya mata terbukak. Hm, japg makan eskrem. Nyammmmm. :D

Tahniah kepada Gee kerana telah aktif kembali dalam Fb, selepas umm, berapa hari ye awak away? 10 hari ye? Hahaha. So, saya berjaya menjadi org yang mencomment first, dapat hadiah apa? Hahaha.

Oke lets be serious shall we? Hmm, reading, knowing about a friend's breakup is making me looking things at a different view. I mean, relationships, what is the expiry date? Do they even have one? I dont think so. I mean, if you love someone, then you'll make it work, you'll do anything, as long as the other party do love you too. You could think you are his other half, and he is yours, but what if he found someone better? Do you fight for him, or you let him go, hoping he'll be happy when you are f-ing suffering? Like me and Gee, after graduating, Ill be living in the east, while he'll be up in the north. Although for me distance is never a problem, it'll take extra efforts, because it will never be the same like we're experiencing now. But then that's what we called developing the relationship, right? Its a different phase and Ill pray we'll always remember what's right, and what's wrong. Kan?

Sambung lain hari, Im having fun ni. Dgr ada orang nyanyi lagu. Selamat Malam. Awwww. Utk saya ke? Nak suruh tido la ni? Ngaaaaaa :D

Regards, Qila

LAla lalaLA

Salam :)

So how was your weekend? Mine? Permulaan weekend yang sucks like hell sebab misunderstanding dengan Gee (well its not misunderstanding actually, lebih kepada World War with bombs, missiles and all explosive thingys, thats how bad it is), borang2 OMRs (surveys and what nots, bodoh betul, cakap lah nak buat survey takde la saya nak pakai baju cantik2 and bazirkan one whole day doing O f-ing MRs forms), pergi kelas yang harusnya 3 jam tapi jadi 2o minit shj (actually the class was CANCELLED tapi dear lecturer FORGOT to mention it and instead ask us to isi evaluation forms for the other lecturers. Owh sweet, so very sweet). It was a good thing that my problem with Gee was slowly cleared up *I admit, it was my fault, never to trust a friend that much again, esp when its a GUY*, and I got to see him for a few nanosecs *exaggerating* with his sisters and cousins. That made my whole Friday. And Saturday was quite fun, AT THE BEGINNING *why am I writing caps ni? owh Im trying to prove a point haha* I was asked to join the bowling team (because someone back out, I was not first choice, euw qila whats with the attitude haha). I never played more than 2 games for bowling, and during that 2 games I can throw straight like half only. So when they said I have to play 4 games, I was like DANG, you certainly picked the wrong girl. Well macam biasa I was f-ing right sebab after the first two games, my score was like 47 and 27. That was after the 10 throws. So muka dah macam pompuan gila and even the guys at my next lane are looking at me dengan muka * Alah kesian dia..* Grrrr.

So as predicted, we got no medals, for girls team and boys team and I vowed to myself that I will never volunteer for any bowling events, ANYMORE. Sorak boleh, masuk, hell no! Malukan diri sendiri, euw! After the match it was close to 3pm, solat dekat Masjid Zahir, and went to Tesco. Not sure of what to eat, we all ate KFC. Owh, kenderaan rasmi pada hari tu adalah Mini Cooper Kel-isa warna oren with a Kelantan number so cuba lah cari haha. It was fun melayan pemandu tersebut all the way from Kgr-AOR and AOR back to Kgr. Gee was away to KL, that explains why he wasnt there. Maybe tu la sebab saya baling senget kot. He wasnt there :( Gedik lah qila hahah.

So arrived home at 5pm, full and contented. Bermalas2 atas katil and watching summore movies. Ahh the life of indulgence. Malam tu tidur awal and as usual, fell asleep while texting Gee. Sorrrrryyy panggilan bantal adalah tak dapat dielak. I tried you know, I really tried :D

So comes Sunday, laundry day. Basuh baju, kemas bilik and meja. Nasib baik, roomate balik hari ni, malu kalau dia tgk bilik bersepah. Dah la kipas say fixed kena kat saya je. Hahha. Sorryyy :D

Ni malam sambung tgk movie lagi? Boleh? Hahah.

Regards, Qila

a pic.

i love this.

just that i hope we'll get more than just a girl. and all of them will be successful, like we are heading towards now. ini bukan entri tentang angan2. ini entri tentang cita2.

ini entri yang akan jadi kenyataan.

I'Allah.