hush.

Salam :(

You know what hurts the most, lagi sakit than the fights? The silence.

Sebab you have nobody to talk to, to tell things, to listen to. Its lonely. And I dont do lonely. And that hurts the most.

Sebab you think you tried, but it wasnt just good enough. For anyone. So you are left alone. It feels like nobody understands you. You try to be understanding, you really tried, when you havent been that understanding before, tapi no use. USELESS. Bcos no one is that understanding to you.

And you are left with runny nose, and puffy eyes, crying, trying to sleep and hoping when you wake up its just a dream. But guess what? You wake up and its real. So you sleep again. Wake up, and its still real. And you just cant take it anymore, you just breakdown. The only comfort that you have is that Korean series that will accompany you for the rest of the night. But even the series will end, and you are left alone again. So you watch it slowly, part by part, making it last as long as possible, bcos secretly, you dont want it to end. Ever.

Isnt that sad? Do you feel me? Even if you feel me, what are you going to do?

Regards, Qila