Life

Salam :|

What a holiday. Dah nak habis dah pun. Spent it without the people that meant the most for me. Well, that's life kan?

YOU DONT ALWAYS GET WHAT YOU WANT.

Tapi seorang Aqilah bukan nya se'mature' tu. Masih berusaha menjadi seorang yang mempunyai hati yang besar. Tapi selalu je gagal sebab kepala hotak ni dah tune for 22 years - I ALWAYS GET WHAT I WANT, AND WHEN I WANT IT. IF I SAY NOW, I WANT IT NOW.

Bila nak berubah? God knows. Bila nak jadi mature? God knows. Bila nak ada hati yang besar? God knows. Bila nak paham situation? God knows.

Dalam otak macam ada kapas yang tekan kat hidung sampai mata rasa nak keluar and tak boleh nafas. Im feeling like Im having a panic attack. Over and over I keep repetiting to myself. Time is all that I needed, and time is something that I dont have, much. People keep saying, nanti2 ada lah and stuff, tapi menjadi seorang Aqilah, I dislike the word nanti. Walaupun I used it often. I dislike waiting. Anything that can shorten my time to spare for the people who means a lot to me, I hate.

Tapi untuk menenangkan hati, cuma satu ayat je. Dua perkataan.

THAT'S LIFE.

And life is not perfect. Yeah right. Whatever.

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Yes I am not in a good mood for the past few days(weeks???) and I dont know how to make it right. If anyone have a clue how to be happy-artificially, do let me know *senyum plastik*

Regards, Qila