bam bam

Salam :)

Using that smiley, doesnt mean Im happy. Im very worried ni >:(

Im getting bam bam. I know when I wore my fav jeans it doesnt feel that loose like it used to. (or maybe sebab baru basuh so ketat skit?)

I worked so hard losing the kilos tapi it is soooo easy to get them back! Argh.

This week kena minum susu pagi and malam.

No more nasi. No moooooree.

Wish me luck and harapnya saya akan beristiqamah. Kalau x dinner I can save some moolah and spend it on the weekend. :D

Yes, weekend adalah motivasi.

Hari ni cirit birit God knows why. I saspek the telur sotong is the culprit. Sebab selama ni makan nasi kandar with ayam goreng I takde ape pun? Grrr. No more telur sotong!! :( The housemate bagi petua utk hilangkan cirit birit minum teh pekat tanpa gula. Well it works for me. Selepas 1 hari berulang alik ke toilet. Last sekali merasa camni adalah semasa di Jakarta. 2 minggu I diare oke. Pocari sweat pulak takde kat sini. *sigh*

p/s : hoping 4 bars of gas will last thru the week. Malas nya nak pegi isi minyak. Summo my ride is blocked.
p/s2 : hoping this week will be better thab the week before, InsyaAllah.
p/s3 : Praying for the Muslims at Egypt, moga diorang akan kembali tenang dan lebih rasional selepas apa yang berlaku. Amin

Regards, Qila

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Salam :|

Fiuh, cant believe feeling better after spilling everything. Just few words and tears, and Im as good as new. Hoping this feeling will last for a long time. Insya Allah.

Regards, Qila

Life

Salam :|

What a holiday. Dah nak habis dah pun. Spent it without the people that meant the most for me. Well, that's life kan?

YOU DONT ALWAYS GET WHAT YOU WANT.

Tapi seorang Aqilah bukan nya se'mature' tu. Masih berusaha menjadi seorang yang mempunyai hati yang besar. Tapi selalu je gagal sebab kepala hotak ni dah tune for 22 years - I ALWAYS GET WHAT I WANT, AND WHEN I WANT IT. IF I SAY NOW, I WANT IT NOW.

Bila nak berubah? God knows. Bila nak jadi mature? God knows. Bila nak ada hati yang besar? God knows. Bila nak paham situation? God knows.

Dalam otak macam ada kapas yang tekan kat hidung sampai mata rasa nak keluar and tak boleh nafas. Im feeling like Im having a panic attack. Over and over I keep repetiting to myself. Time is all that I needed, and time is something that I dont have, much. People keep saying, nanti2 ada lah and stuff, tapi menjadi seorang Aqilah, I dislike the word nanti. Walaupun I used it often. I dislike waiting. Anything that can shorten my time to spare for the people who means a lot to me, I hate.

Tapi untuk menenangkan hati, cuma satu ayat je. Dua perkataan.

THAT'S LIFE.

And life is not perfect. Yeah right. Whatever.

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Yes I am not in a good mood for the past few days(weeks???) and I dont know how to make it right. If anyone have a clue how to be happy-artificially, do let me know *senyum plastik*

Regards, Qila

Stick on it

Salam.

Nota untuk diri sendiri,


Aqilah,

Sudah-sudahlah menjadi childish.
BURUK.

Yang benar,
sisi gelap seorang Aqilah

Regards, Qila