Hm.

Salam :(

The 2nd most stressful week of my final year.

I think after this Ill become a quiet, invisible girl. Nothing I say ever makes any difference, buat orang benci lagi ada. So perhaps Ill zipped up my mouth and let my fingers do the talking.

So blog, you'll be working extra hard now on.

This head is blank, rasa macam penuh kapas je. And I feel like I'v lost my sync with the person I though could read me. I dont know if the exams are killing it, or me myself is killing it. Guess it all comes down to one person. ME. Whatever. Gonna read like there's no tomorrow and wanna be away from any keyboard, keypad or whatsoever. Whateverrrrrrrrrrrr.

Regards, Qila

Schedules mchedules

Salam :|

Today, is like usual. Hmm. Am taking a LONG break from studying, my exams is on the 30th. Grrrrrr. Geram at myself sbb tak masuk2 apa yang bace. *sigh* Japg akan bergigih lg okay.

So that is my viva schedule. The last person of the day. Fiuh. Harap2 both of em are in a good mood, and wanna go home to their family ASAP that they dont have to ask me too many qs and I, dont have to talk too much. Amin. Hows that for a doa? Heheh.

Getting a supervisor like mine, who is a perfectionist tends to stress you out at first, tapi then I know at the end of the day, apa yang dia nak perfect sgt tu akan tolong kita in the future. And that kind of thinking yang helps me get through 2 semesters aka a year with him, patiently. So sekarang everything comes down to this one day, this 30 minutes of babbling what you have done for a year. Hope I dont stutter. tee hee.

So this rumours of us having to stay for another 2-3 months to take another 2 subjects is making me slightly happy. I mean really happy :D Staying here, means seeing Gee for a while longer and altho I have to accept the fact that no matter what we're still be living apart after everything is over, time is something I would like to treasure with him when I am still able. So if it means me having to study for another 2 papers, so be it. Bring it on! Ill study happily :)) Harap Gee pun sama happy, I mean kesian kan kalau saya je happy, he's not because perhaps secretly he cant wait for me to get berambus so he can continue go drive tengah2 malam without this girl whining mcm kucing sakit saying things like bawang and TV3 when she's mamai. Hee kiddingggggg :) Ya know I love ya kannn :D

So yeah. Sambung study.

Regards, Qila

VIRUS

Salam :|

Guess what, I already knew whats wrong with the camera. Bukan susah sangat pun nak detect. Its a VIRUS! A fucking virus-that-likes-to hid-files-god-knows-where. So the DCIM folder of my camera is actually hidden, its there, but I cant fucking see it sbb its fucking hidden. And who knows what else is hidden inside my laptop right now. *sigh* Means have to spend some money to format the laptop. And I'm pretty broke, will have to wait until the Parents put some money into that lightweight account of mine. *double sigh*

So one thing's settled which is my camera, another issue come out means my laptop. So apa lagi masalah nak keluar? Dah la my studies pun dah all over the place, have to study banyak banyak banyak. No hints what so ever, I mean kenapa tak keluarkan je soalan mid terms and suchs, saves u time to make questions kan. Ish lecturers, lecturers.

Whatever lah. Study sampai lebam jom. Bf sila give me your full support. I freaking need it, so very much.

Regards, Qila

hearts

Salam :)

Another entry, this time its about a specific occasion. One that I'v been waiting for.

We've hit the 6 month mark. :) Alhamdulillah.

A half year of knowing each other. We've promised not to hide anything, the bad, the good, the sweet and the sour. Its all out here in the open. My immaturity, his spontaneity. My long faces, his scrunched forehead. Me nagging about his facial hair, him about my cute stomach and chubby cheeks.The fights and the laughs. The truth about each other. Its all there. 6 month is not enough to get to know someone, but I hope that we will have our lifetime to get to know each other, insyaAllah.

Being with someone that you enjoyed sharing things with, sharing thoughts with is hard to find. And when you find him/her, all you have to do is treasure it and give the best you can. This is the last anniversary we're celebrating together, as Im going home HOME in the middle of May. It panics me for thinking of the distance, but its what you've got to face, and Iv realized it early on, when we both started the relationship, that we'r going to be far away, sooner or later. Like a friends FB status 'Abscene sharpens love, presence strengthen it', I wanna be just like that. That's what love really is, giving your loved ones and yourself strength and support, altho perhaps he's/she's far away. Be strong for him/ her while at the same time he's/ she's giving you the strength you need.

So here's to the 6 month of being together, as best friends, confidante, mirror and conscience, and here's to many coming months, years, decade and century of being in love.

our coke cups and pixellate name :)

the gf,

Tabis

Regards, Qila

Updates?

Salam :)
A lil update on yesterday and today okay? We start with yesterday, had a day out with the Gfs, plannya nak Jalan-jalan Perlis. Altho da blaja kat sini for almost 4 years, banyakk gila tempat yang saya tak sampai lagi. Tempat luar dari Perlis dah sampai, tapi, ni yang sekangkang kera ni ada je yang missing. Ehe. So semalam pergi laa ke Pusat Kecemerlangan Harum Manis (sangat bangga, mereka cemerlang sgt.. sobb, sobb), Taman Herba (tgk semua pokok sama, tapi nama je lain.. hmm), and the pergi Gua Kelam, was meaning to naik the train tapi suprise, suprise, TRAIN TAK BUKAK. Sejak bulan DISEMBER. Apekah? Watever laa I dah tawar hati. Dah la panas oke hari tu :(  <<--- okay ni adalah entri tak habis beberapa hari lepas malas nak tuka dates and so on and I am super malas nak type again so yeaaaa ni entri basi :D

So ini adalah entri untuk hari ni the 26th, okay. Hari ni start full force study *kononnya* tapi teringin nak upload pics berjalan merata Perlis hari tu. And guess what? I CANNOT TRANSFER THE PICS. Because why, I sendiri tak tahuuu. Dem betul2 rosak mood hari ni sampai tak boleh happy dengan Bf yang telah berjaya menamatkan exam terakhirnya dengan berjaya. Tiba2 monster jealous keluar pulak tapi sekejap je, then dah oke dah. Hee. So sekarang masalahnya adalah TAK BOLEH TRANSFER PICS. Harap2 dia wat hal kat laptop saya sahaja sebab setelah bertanya kepada kawan yang meminjam camera saya dia cakap oke jekkkk. Ish. Bikin saya susah hati. Dah la banyak nak pakai lepas ni huu IM SAD oke.

Makanya tiada pics jalan2 di Perlis selagi camera saya tak sihat, and talking bout this really ruins my mood sheeshh.

I think the Bf deserves a paragraph in my blog today berkaitan kejayaan nya menduduki exam TERAKHIR di unibersiti, tahniah, tahniah. So happy por yu my boypren congrets congrets. Dan mengetahui bahawa semua yang dibaca oleh dia masuk dalam final, saya sekali lagi sgt happy utk dia. Tak sia2 dia tak tdo malam sebelum exam utk study everything. Im glad, sbb saya rasa saya adalah salah satu punca dia kekurangan masa untuk study. Im selfish that way haih :( I wish for you all the best Bf, u deserve it. Sekrang concentrate on ur viva pulak :) wo ai ai ai ai ni!

Lately been spending A LOT of time dekat fast food joints. KFC especially. Salah satu sebab we can't stand the heat so we opted to the easiest solution, makan kat KFC, online kat KFC. Pernah in a week tu 3 days straight we eat KFC for lunch. I mean, tak pernah kot macam tu haih. And I think that is the reason for my weight gain yang terlampau ekstrim, sangat2 naik sekarang demmit. The weight gain attacks you around 2 or 3 weeks after that indulging moments so sekarang Aqilah, RASAKAN!! Masa makan tak hengat *sigh*. Well tak guna crying over KFC chicken, get ur ass moving and lose that weight, prontooooo. Already promised Gee, the nex time u see me (i mean after i come home HOME, and then we see each other) , ill be fitter. Fitter oke, not slimmer. Nah, saya bukan orang yang slim, dan takkan pernah jadi pun. Accepted it a longg time ago already hehe.

So yea, itu je kot? No pics, sila baca sebab2 di atas demz. I hate being like this. Ish.

Dan masih menunggu yang tersayang sampai ke rumah dengan selamat.

Regards, Qila

2 down

Salam :)

What a beautiful morning. Woke up by the Bf, saying good morning and a very light head, is juat the nicest way to start the morning. Have plans later with the Gfs, Bf yang ada kelas, kena concentrate k? Kasi rindu lebih sikit *wakakakakaka*

Semalam punya 2 paper was oke, TITAS jawab 1jam 30minit je, sebab OBJEKTIF *yay* dan esei dia saya buat tak laa panjang sgt. wuwuwuww. Hope 4 the best je lah. Hm. Lepas habis exam called Gee inform dah kuar dewan, nak balik W.ulu kalau ada bus and then dia cakap dia pun dah nak gerak Perlis, so pick me up, had lunch + study at Anjung KEli *ada orang study kat Anjung Keli?? Hahaah* and then p Muhibbah sebab nak AIRCOND. Study skejap and the we're off to Matriks Perlis for JDM. JDM pun Alhamdulillah kot.. Kalau tak balance, dibalancekan akaun nya, kalau salah seksyen wat konon2 betul untuk law.. kalau salah management, blame the manager and kalau salah ethics, sapa suruh BEM tanak accredited? :p

So nex exam is BI yang diambil untuk cukupkan jam kredit, and nak patch up kesilapan lampau. Huuuu.

Banyak plans melibatkan makanan untuk saya dan Gee selepas tamat xm dan viva. Sebelum saya meninggalkan bumi Perlis dan Utara ni. Walau tak selamanya, but long enough to make me miss this hot, sunny, permai lagi mempersona place. Nasi kandaqqqq mau lagi okeeeee :D

Take care, insan yang cemerlang, lahir dari akal yang sihat bla bla bla.. WAKAAKAKAAKA :)

Regards, Qila

of two.

Salam :|

2 papers tomorrow. Pagi and petang. Dah start rasa tak larat. Berlakon oke pun tak boleh. Sebab dah tak larat. Iv tried my best, sekarang boleh tawakal je.

Penat lah.

Regards, Qila

Foodie

Salam :)

Dah lama tak update. Malas sebnonye. Heheh. Tapi disebabkan Gee dah tanya pasal blog, saya mengambil keputusan untuk menulis sedikit malam ni cewahhh.

So lusa saya akan start exam final of the finals, meaning my last exams as a degree student, i'Allah.. and the exams will be until the 30th fiuh. Disambung dgn presentation untuk FYP on the 5-7th. And then, tamat sudah hidup sebagai pelajar Ijajah. Hee :D Altho saya tak sabar nak habiskan degree saya, saya tahu saya akan rindu saat2 belajar dan dengan kawan2. Standard laa kann :) Btw. mohon doanya ye, supaya exam2 terakhir ni akan berlalu dengan flying colours.. Tak lupa untuk sahabat2 dan mereka2 yang akan turut melalui exams, good luck, all the best :)

Ada plans after the xm/ presentation yang Im so looking forward to. Hee, rahsia lagi, nanti laa bila dah setel semua baru cakap yayyyy :) Btw, am getting the turtles after exams too *hope so lah*

Sekarang musin harum manis, rasa nak pos balik KT, but then tunggu ada masa betul2, baru pergi cari. Huff..

Report FYP dah submit, altho I know my SV takkan puas hati with it, but I just wanna get it over and done with. Syabas untuk kita berdua Gee. Truly sentiasa sama2 walau susah dan senang, sampai bila2 i'Allah :)

Tringin sgt2 makan ayam penyet.. :(

And sekarang Ill be eating nasi kandar macam makanan ruji. Sebab nanti balik KT dah tak jumpa. Lagipun iv been trying to deny that I actually love nasi kandar for all these years, sekarang tak lagi. Dengan sokongan Gee, I can eat nasi kandar for lunch and dinner! Breakfast melampau laa.. Anak mamak pun tak makan nasi kandar for breakfast kan? Ehe.

So there. Ade je yang missing ni. Nanti la add up.

Regards, Qila

marshmallow

Salam :)

Taking time off from the report writing frenzy to write in the blog for a while Padahal dah amik break makan aiskrim and oso isi angin tayar kete acik tadi. Wakakak. Now typing ni kejap and ill sambung my report, wishing it will be finish in the nearest time possible, Amin.

Today was the supposedly report submitting for my school. But moi? I am submitting it a few days late, due to my supervisor's requests to do a few more tests, such as Scanning Electron Microscopy and XRay Diffraction. Alhamdulillah, SEM dah settle tadi and esok just amik result XRD. Although XRD ada sedikit bumps along the road, sangat2 thankful dengan PLV tersebut sebab sanggup patah balik ke lab utk buat test tu for me. The names thats going to be written in my Acknowledgement is growing, sebab ramai sangat yang tolong, and I wanna show my appreciation :) Alhamdulillah, dipermudahkan semuanya walaupun sekarang rasa macam susaaahh sangat, but then this is only for a few days more. Go go chaiyoo. Im just a few steps closer for my Degree. Pls pls pls.

Dasar manusia yang tak tahu bersyukur, ada sesekali terfikir, studying in Electronics or Computer Engineering seems a lot easier, sebab in Electronics, jawapan dia sama ada 0 atau 1. Analogically. (Is there such thing? Aha) Tapi kalau my course dan yang sewatu dengannya, (Mine is Materials Engineering btw), we have experiments. Experiments that could be successful, or they could successfully fail.And you neeeeed to have explainations for everythinggg. And sometimes, its not even the real explainations. Aha :D But tehn do you think you could call yourself an engineer if you main tipu2 with the results? I still rmmber a sentence that my packaging lecturer said to us while we are presenting. 'You must be responsible for whatever that you put on the screen.' Ouch sebab at that time I was presenting this one part yang sangat emm tak konfiden, tapi present depan mereka2 yang sgt knowledgeable. 1 perkataan je. Suicide. Hahah.

So sekarang time nak sambung buat report. And Ill be reunited with the CAM tomorrow. Yeaaayyyyy. I like :D

Regards, Qila

Plain numbers.

Salam :|

Perhaps I need some reassurance, and for every question I ask, I should not be treated as a child. I am not that stupid to ask dumb questions, so when I ask, there's a reason for it.

And hearing that particular number, although PERHAPS its random, really hurts.

And PERHAPS I should stop saying I'm oke when I'm not. I hate lying, and lying doesnt help at all.

Regards, Qila

fuh.

Salam :)

Lokasi : Wang Ulu, Perlis

Baru lepas sudah laundry, sidai kain dan kemas meja selerak. Bereksesais selepas kenyang melantak nasi lemak dan teh ais kawww dengan Gee. Makan kul 830am, tapi smpai sekarang kenyang. Gilerk ahh hahha. So got nothing to do sebab like I said before, classes are over wuhuu and my FYP draft is with my SV, petang baru jumpa amik benda tu and betulkan the draft fiuhh. So sekarang rileks jap. JAP je huaa.

So dapat notification from Celcom abot my SV status in fb (yes I subscribe him haha) and dia cakap his Master student dah setel VIVA, and dapat MSc dah. Fuhh, tiba2 perut buat summersault. Ada kupu2. Sebab Ill be facing my VIVA around sebulan lagi, and there's a lot of what ifs in my mind. Fuhh. Im his only Degree student under him, and I really2 want to make him proud. Takut efforts tak cukup, tapi I have done my best. Yep.

Harap2 sebulan lagi dia akan update status fb dia dengan kata2 'Congrats to my degree student Aqilah Azman, have been awarded with B.Eng Materials Engineering' Aminnnnnn. Fuh. Pls lahhhhhhhhh saya mau GRAD!

Nak cari ketenangan, tapi tak tau kat mana. Haih.

Regards, Qila

and end to a beginning

Salam :)

Good morning world :D Woke up early altho I slept at 5 am this morning, these eyes cant seem to close. Mungkin sebab semalam dah tidur dari jam 9pm until 1am, I seriously was so tired, can't function. Plus, I was full. Mcm kucing gemok bergelimpangan semalam haha.

So I had my last presentation yesterday for the subjects Im taking this semester, yayy for me :D So it is kinda official that the sem is ending, there's no more classes (plssss no more) and I just have to study for my finals and also for FYP *sigh*

My finals starts on the 20th and end on 30th with 4 papers to sit. Gilaa takk on the 20th I have 2 finals, nasib baik it wasnt core subject, just wajib but still, have to study extra2 hard. And my presentation for FYP is sometime around mid May so kalau report dah setel, I can rilex a bit :)

Right now Im reading The Lovely Bones, altho have seen the movie, a lil tak puas hati sebab banyak tak complete. So bought it sometime last week. I used to read 2 books a week (AT LEAST) tp sekarang sebab busy *kononnya* dah tak baca dah. Ni baru nak start balik and Im waiting for Dan Brown's latest. Cant wait.

I keep on telling people how I cant wait to get this degree over and done with. Tapi I know, right after everything is done, Ill be the one missing these people. I had my share of great, great friends and also of bad, bad friends. These are the people that made me who I am, 4 years of university's life sure made me see a lot of things. Sebagai contoh, what people do when they are desperate enough and hateful enough, and how some people will help you no matter what, because they know they can help. Ill miss the lecturers, the lectures, the school, the food joints even the small shops selling Thailand clothes. Hahaha. Cakap2 macam ni, tgk2 ada rezeki sambung lagi kat sini, kan? Hahahhaahaha.

But most of all mestilah I miss Gee the most. Tu je motip sebnanye cakap miss everything above sebab I went to the places with him, so mestilah Ill b missing those places. Grr :)

p/s : i miss my ibu and ayah, i miss home.
p/s/s: ill be seeing my SV later, harap2 he wont ask me qs i cant answer ahaaah.

Regards, Qila

Never Knew I Needed

Salam :)

Never Knew I Needed- Ne Yo

For the way you changed my plans
For being the perfect distraction
For the way you took the idea that I have
Of everything that I wanted to have
And made me see there was something missing (oh yeah)

For the ending of my first begin
And for the rare and unexpected friend
For the way you're something that I never choose
But at the same time something I don't wanna lose
And never wanna be without ever again (oh oh)

You're the best thing I Never Knew I Needed
So when you were here I had no idea
You're the best thing I never knew I needed
So now it's so clear I need you here always

My accidental happily (ever after oh oh oh)
The way you smile and how you comfort me (with your laughter)
I must admit you were not a part of my book
But now if you open it up and take a look
You're the beginning and the end of every chapter

:)

At the beginning none of us knew each other. We both weren't looking for someone. We both were living each other lives, separately. Until one day, it happens and he become my accidental happily ever after. Its such a shock how love comes when you are not looking for it. So easy, so at ease. Looking back two years ago, who thought we could be what we are now? Two people in love, with each other.

He is now, truly the beginning and the end of every chapter of my book.

p/s: the song's nice :)
p/s/s: i become somewhat mellow when it rains haha

Regards, Qila